Metamorphasize

Breathe

Today is another day,

yesterday I stood,

In front of you all, trying to remain calm.

Trying not to drop such a large load on you all,

Once I begin, I cannot stop,

I hold back tears, and my throat strains in exhaustion.

The lies flood my mind, everything becomes rigid,

I gasp in attempt to gather enough breath to continue.

Its hard to stand, my legs threaten to give out, if they do I will be a crumpled mess on the floor,

What a site, a great first impression.

When I stop and my breath catches, an odd sensation spreads throughout my being,

I feel lost, but then you guys greet me with loving eyes, you wave and share a refrenece to pull me from the chasm that is my mind.

You guys saw me through, gave me strength.

I begin and everything comes out,

I don't remember everything I said, it was like a damn,

Ot broke and the feelings within me seem to dim as I stand there,

Tears streaming down my face, a silence settles in,

I am enveloped in fear, like a hand clenching my heart.

Then a sound crushes the fear, I don't recognize it right away, What could it be?

So strange and familiar, a sound I've made before but never have heard it myself,

I stumble as I regain my stance,

When I walk to my seat someone steps in the way,

The people I barely know, they embrace me and want to protect me, what a lovely feeling and embrace, when she hugged me all the eyes that I've feared seemed to fade away.

"Thank you," I whisper.

As I take my seat you guys come and embrace me, a look of worry on your faces, questioning everything I am,

The one question I never thought I'd hear, "Why didn't you tell me?"

I feel awful for keeping this secret to myself and admit to myself, I am not alone, finally I believe it when I relax, rubbing my eyes to wipe the tears away and smudging my makeup.