Hidden Secrets - A Beau Brooks Fanfic

Chapter Twenty

"DAHLIA WHERE WERE YOU I HAVE BEEN WORRIED SICK! I THOUGHT SOMETHING BAD HAD HAPPENED TO YOU!"

I walk in the door to find Beau pacing up and down the room, his eyes bloodshot and his hands in his hair.

"Im....I'm sorry.."

"DO YOU KNOW WHAT TIME IT IS? ITS ALMOST ONE IN THE MORNING!"

"Beau!" he twitches at me shouting and stares at me, his chest rising and falling heavily. 

"Please, don't do that again, I was so worried" He whispers and goes and sits down on the bed. I drop my bag on the floor and walk over to him, falling beside him. He rolls over onto me pinning my hands above my head. An image of Ian pinning me up against a wall appears in my head and I think I must have had a scared expression on my face because he soon releases his grip and strokes my cheek. "Beau...." I begin but he puts his fingers against my lips to quieten me. I hadnt even noticed him turn off the light leaving us bathing in the glow of the moon. His breathing is still heavy and uneven, and his breath, hot against my skin. My nose is pressed against his and my hands are wrapped round the back of his neck which is sticky with sweat. I grab the edge of his top and pull it over his head running my hands all of his chest, the star on his left ab. My breath catches in my throat as his cold hands stroke my thighs, lifting the black dress I was wearing up leaving me in just my underwear. His lips brush against my hip making me moan softly before he comes back up and kisses me, his lips soft and gentle against my own. I bite his bottom lip and his hands reach for my hair in response. He lies me down gently and caresses my face, his eyes so mesmerizing

We didn't have sex. We just slept with each other. It was nice to know I had someone there for me. It almost made me feel bad about having Ben as my secret but I was to caught up in the moment that I couldn't say no. 

I had agreed to meet Ben again the next morning and decided it was best to do it whilst Beau was at the gym. I slip on a pair of light wash denim shorts and a powdery blue tank top and pull my hair into an easy pony. I was meant to be meeting him at the edge of one of the coastal walks but when I walked out of the lobby, he was waiting there in his car. 

"Hey" I say opening up the door and getting in. "I thought we were going walking?"

"Yeah we are, but I thought I would come pick you up anyway" he replys giving me a smile

About 10 minutes later we pulled up in a grassy field where we parked the car. The were three dirt tracks at the end of the field in which we decided to pick the middle. Neither us spoke to each other for a while but when we finally did it was Ben who spoke up first.

"Can I ask you something?" he says picking a wild flower from the hedge and pulling each individual petal off. I lift my hand up to my hair where the Plumeria had been pinned yesterday. "Yeah go ahead" 

"Did you really have sex with your step-dad?" 

"Oh.." I mumble to myself, hoping he would take the hint that I didnt really want to talk about but he doesnt and raises his eyebrows at me urging me to continue. "I...I would rather not talk about it" I say pickig up my pace slightly but hes faster and manages to grab my hand.

"You can tell me Dahlia, we're like together now, you can tell me anything"

"Its not that I dont want to tell you Ben" I try to explain. The fact was I didnt want to tell him. "I just would rather not talk about it."

"What about your cutting? Is that true?"

"Ben!" I shout pulling away from him and speeding up. The mud squelches under my feet and it reminds me of the night Beau pulled me out of the bog. Everything seemed to remind me of him. "You cant just ask people about these things!"

"I just wanted to know, if you're going to be my girlfriend then I ought to know-"

"I'm not being anyone's girlfriend Ben. And stop treating me like I'm some object. I have feelings to you know, I'm not just someone's possession" 

He doesnt reply to me and instead just links my arm and smiles. I let my mind drift off as soon as he starts talking again and just concentrate on walking. The sound of the wave sets crashing into the shore hundreds of feet below us fills my ears and the smell of wild flowers tingles my nostrils. I lift my head back letting the wind blow back my hair and let my senses go crazy.

"Dahlia? Dahlia!"

"WHAT?!" I say, opening my eyes to see him grinning at me from a tree a few metres ahead.

"Come here"

Sighing, I walk over and he gives me hand up the tree. The view was utterly breathtaking. 

"Its...its amazing" I laugh and he brushes the hair out of my face. The cliffs enclosed the beach which stretched on for miles. Even from where we were, you could taste the salt in the air, obviously from the spray getting taken away in the wind and being blown around like fairy dust.

"Dahlia!" he shouts over the wind, "I know you literally just said you weren't being anyone's girlfriend, but I love you! I want you to be my girlfriend!"

I stare at him. He just didnt seem to get it. "Ben.........I" Those eyes. So tempting, but they were no comparison to.....Beau's. I had only experienced being heartbroken once.  But now what I was feeling was different. It wasnt heartbreak more just heartache. Each second I spent away from Beau seemed like an utter lifetime and standing here right now looking at Ben made me miss him even more. So I did what I knew best. I ran.

"IS THAT A YES THEN? ARE WE DATING?"

And I ran. I knew that I would have to face him again soon. I couldn't run away forever. But I couldn't stay there and face answering him either. One of my biggest fears is also one of my biggest dreams. Starting a family. It wasn't like Ben was there getting down on one knee telling me to marry him but......

I keep running, pushing my legs more and more. I didn't know whether I was being chased at all, I didn't want to look back. My phone had rung several times to. Whether that was Ben or Beau, I don't know but I didnt want to check. As I look down at my pocket someone barges into me and stop to glare.

"HEY WATCH WHERE YOU'RE GOING JERK!" I yell back at the guy and then continue on my way.

"Dahlia?"

I stop again to look back and who I see shocks me.