cold coffee

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by Candy097

by Candy097

"Well..maybe if I learned to control my emotions, this wouldn't hurt as bad as it does." I said this with such a monotonous tone that it made him even more worried. "Hey..it's just a little emotion y/n..I'm sure your feelings will blow over.." as he says this the Barista comes over, setting down his coffee and my iced tea. "Yeah.." I laugh coldly. "Just a little emotion.." I quote him back, allowing him to hear how ignorant he sounds right now. "Zak..this is breaking me. I literally can't do anything without thinking about him and the fact that it will never work." my emotions were strong, and like Zak said and I've said to myself in the past, this will all blow over. We were wrong though, the feelings are as strong as ever and he's all I ever think about anymore.

"Hey..look at me.." His hand finds his way on to mine, my eyes squeezing shut before I open them again, looking at him. "It's gonna be alright..I know how hard it is..trust me..but it will get better.." As much as I want to believe him, smile and thank him, breakdown and hug him for helping me open my eyes, I still scoffed coldly, snatching my hands away from his. "You really don't understand. I don't even know why I told you in the first place." His head drops a bit, I can easily tell he's getting impatient with me. "Who is it?" His question catches me off guard, I immediately grab my tea and take a long sip to avoid answering. "y/n tell me." He's looking dead into my eyes and it's driving me crazy. "Zak..drink your coffee it'll get cold.." I try my hardest to at least shift the tension that was now growing, but my attempts only made it thicker.

"Why won't you tell me?..Are you ashamed?.." I start to feel nervous, what if I'm blowing this whole thing out of proportion? I'm literally interrogating the girl I've had feelings for since we first met 3 years ago, I shouldn't be putting this much pressure on her. But I'm so close. Her eyes dart all over the room, purposely avoiding mine. Soon enough she looks at me, tears nearly falling out of her eyes. "I'll tell you..just..don't be weird about it and don't tell anyone..okay?" I put my hand on my heart and my other on her hand. "You have my word." She nods and closes her eyes, taking a deep breath and opening them again.

"It's Jay."

I'm so caught off guard that I nearly forget how to breath. Guess that's what I get for fully expecting her to say my name.
I can tell she notices my behavior and reaction to her response, because I can feel her warm palm on my forearm. "I know it's weird but please keep it to yourself.." I nod my head frantically, thinking up a random excuse to leave already. "Drink your coffee..I don't want the focus on this anymore.." I mentally agree with her and pick up my cup, the warmth is completely gone. I sit there staring at y/n spacing out while drinking cold coffee.

sorry i haven't updated in so long
my phone went through a hard reset and all my pictures, videos ect. are all gone
im currently waiting on the new phone and i didn't really want to download wattpad on this empty phone no way but eH