Her Knight in Shining Armor (On Hold)

Ch. 9 I'm Sorry

Before I start I just want to say thank you to the fans I have if I even have any. But I haven’t been on since what summer I think and I feel so bad about that. College is only a blink of an eye away and I almost failed my physics class so I have been working hard to get my grades back up to their former glory. I have decided on going to school for Pre-med and I am going to double major in teaching biology if everything goes right. But that’s pretty much it, so thanks again to anyone who still reads my stuff.

WARNING IF YOU DON'T LIKE MUCH VIOLENCE AND/ OR CUSSING THEN DONT READ THIS WHOLE CHAPTER :) I MEAN YOU SHOULD BUT JUST BE WARNED  

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"What do you mean you can't come?" Lindon asked me.

"I can't come." I rolled my eyes and backed away from the cafeteria doors.

"But I had this planned for a week now." He frustratedly ran a hand through his hair showing off his large forehead, that he usually keeps strategically hidden under his fringe.

"I don't care, I can't come." I stated and started to walk away.

"Raine!" Lindon shouted and grabbed onto my upper arm. Like always it had me flinching away from him. "How......how is your mom doing?" He asked serenely, his face turned soft. That question caught me off guard, at first I had even forgot about the lie Lanie and I had made up. Could you blame me though? Probably, what am I talking about.

"Oh......she's good." I whispered loud enough for him to hear. "I-I need to go." I stated and jerked my arm out of his grasp. I took off down the hall running as fast as I could to the back of the school. I found my favorite, yet gnarled oak tree that has been in the back of this school longer than I've been alive. It was beckoning me so I sat underneath it and started to let slow tears trace their way down my face. What was I crying for? To be honest, I couldn't tell. Could it be that I lied to him so easily, yet now wished I could take it back? Maybe I'm crying for the fact that he might hate me if he finds out the truth, but wait isn't that what I've wanted for a long time? Haven't I wanted him to leave me alone? Haven't I told people countless times that he's annoying? What if-what if.........

"Raine why are you out here by yourself?" Miller's voice pierced through my depressive state. I stared up at him for a good two seconds but just hid my eyes behind my bangs again.

"Because I can,” came my lame excuse. When actually I should be saying, 'Because I don't know what's going on inside my head.' That was pretty useless though, seeing as I could barely talk about *shutter* feelings with anyone. Let alone someone I have barely known for more than three months.

He sat down beside me, "I know I'm not that close to you yet, but I can tell something is wrong with you." He said with genuine worry. "I can tell in your eyes that something is happening and you can't place what to think about it." Oh he's good. I pick my head up to look up at him, showing I'm interested in where this is going. "I can also tell that you wince when someone touches you in certain places. I can also tell that you don't get along with your parents by how much time you spend at the ally." He said.

"Shut up." I said looking away from him. He's a little too perceptive if he could almost read me like an open book. Was I really not good at hiding my emotions this whole time or had all of these new things started happening, in turn breaking my defenses. That jerk, he might honestly get me in deep shit one of these days. Now not only do I have to worry about the rumor and staying away from Lindon, but I have to avoid Miller too. I was just starting to warm up to him too.