The Misfits

Forget It | Estelle

Today I was going back to school and I was ridiculously terrified, I was going to have to talk to Jake about Friday night and I didn't know how to tell him that I preferred Halden now. That's if he even wanted to figure out what happened between us, he might just want to forget about it and move on.

I walked up to the school and my hands started to sweat again, I was getting sort of tired of my heart beating so fast and my hands sweating and feeling numb. Things made me too nervous too easily now.

When I saw Jake sitting on the brick wall, I walked towards him. Gwen was no where in sight. As I approached, Jake looked over at me but didn't smile, at least he wasn't glaring at me either, he just sort of stared at me.

"We need to talk." I told him. Jake nodded and cast a nervous look around the grounds before grabbing me by the elbow and taking me behind the school where it was less crowded, no one would see or hear them.

"I want us to just forget about everything that happened last night." Jake told me, eyes full of urgency. I let out a breath of relief but I never expected to feel a little bit angry.

"Um..." I cleared my throat. "So why did you bring me there then? What about that talk had to be so special except for the fact that you basically told me that you thought I was more special than Gwen?"

Jake ran a hand through his hair, looking frustrated. "I-I don't know, Estelle. After that kiss I had a lot of time to think and... I love Gwen. I've always loved Gwen, Gwen and I have more in common that we do. She's special to me, and so are you but more in a... In a friend way."

I rolled my eyes and let out a laugh. "Right. So you tell me, 'Oh I've never told Gwen any of this because I trust you more and your special, blah blah blah' and then right after kiss me. You call that an act of friendship? Really?"

"At the time I wasn't thinking about us being friends, you're right! But after thinking about what I did... That's the second time I've cheated on Gwen and-"

"Don't you take that as some sort of sign, Jake? You've cheated on Gwen with me twice already and both times you said that it was nothing but you do it again! I know that you will do it again! Isn't it obvious that you like me more than you like her?" I felt like I was going to burst.

Jake ran both of his hands through his hair this time and looked around to make sure that no one was watching or listening. "Estelle, I do like you, but I like Gwen more than I have ever liked someone in my whole life. I can't just abandon her, we understand each other-"

"Oh and we don't? Jake the same things happened to us in the past! All that has happened to Gwen is her parents got into a freaking divorce yet she still has the nerve to say that she gets it?! She cheated on you, Jake! She made out with that one dude-"

"Yeah well we kissed too! And I'm done giving Gwen more reasons to mistrust me! We are not going to be together and that is final, I love Gwen and I want us to forget that any of this has ever happened!" Jake yelled, his eyes flashing grey.

I took in a deep breath and ran a hand through my own hair. "You know what, I don't even know why I'm fighting. After our little "unromantic moment" Halden texted me. We forgave and forgot and now we're kinda together so whatever. I choose Halden and I'll always choose him." I gave him a smile of triumph.

Jake laughed. "You are such a hypocrite! You yell at me for choosing Gwen over you because we had a "romantic moment" and then after you realize that you've obviously lost you tell me that you don't even like me anyway?! Grow up, Estelle and learn that this is reality! You don't get everything you want! You don't get a perfect love triangle, you don't get a perfect guy, and no one chooses you over every single other freaking person!" Jake screamed. Then he spun around and marched away, red faced.

It took me a minute to actually comprehend on everything that Jake just said. Add idiot to the list. 1. Whore 2. Childish 3. Hypocrite 4. Idiot

I took in a deep, shuddering breath and walked around the side of the building as well. The bell rang and everyone bolted inside, running into me as if I were nothing. I guess that I was nothing. What would happen if I really did just disappear off the face of the earth? The only people that would care are Halden and my mom. It's lucky that I care about them enough not to do so.

Once everyone went inside, I followed after them, keeping my head bent low so that my auburn hair hid my face which was streaked with tears. I don't know why I was crying, there was nothing to cry about. It's not like what Jake said really mattered.

All of it was true and it wasn't hurtful enough to cry about. I was just being a baby, childish, just like he said. With this thought in mind, I wiped away those tears and held my head up, but not too high. Just high enough that I could see where I was going and make my way towards my locker without bumping into things.

That's when Halden sneaked up behind me and wrapped his arms around my waist, making me yelp in surprise. Halden laughed and turned around, pecking me on the cheek and slipping his hand into mine while we walked down the hall. I could see Jake and Gwen holding hands and talking, smiling. They were such an adorable couple.

It hurt that Jake didn't even glance at me while we walked right by them. All I got was a glare from Gwen.

"What's up with you?" Halden asked, staring as I looked at my feet.

I took in a deep breath and forced a fake smile onto my face. "Up? Nothing's up, I'm perfectly fine." I replied. I always hated questions like that, 'are you okay?', 'is something up?' it was a pointless question. More than half of the time nobody even answered truthfully anyway.

Halden looked at me suspiciously but I let go of his hand and opened my locker before he could ask me anymore. I pulled out my math textbook and notebook and walked down to the classroom while Halden followed after me looking confused. I really liked Halden, I did, but I didn't want to deal with him right now.

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After School

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School went by slower than how I would have preferred it to. Every time I tried to catch Jake's eye or smile or wave at him, he would look away. It was like when Halden was ignoring me all over again. I don't know why I suddenly wanted Jake's attention.

I mean, I have Halden, right?

I guess that my life is just really screwed up.

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