a love message

Chapter 8

When I woke up the the next day, awfully late cause I was staring at mine and ethan's entire conversation from the day before, the first thing I did was jump out of bed and check my phone for new messages, but to my huge surprise, the phone was dead.

No! No! No! I need to talk to him! I have to talk to him! Otherwise all of my hope will sink deep deep into the sea and I will be as lost as before. But what can I do? I can't ask dad for a charger or a new phone, he will kill me for having this one in first place. But again, I was desperate, and if there was someone who could help me without asking questions (well, not too many questions anyway), its Fay.

Im looking over my shoulder to the phone, my heart's pounding as fast as forming the words "its ok,mommy's gonna be back soon"

Down stairs Fay's flipping pancakes and singing loudly.(I take it that daddy already left). Happy to find her in a good mood, I'm taking a sear by the coffee table and smile widely.

"Hey fay, care to explain the amazing mood you're having "? Could it be that I sounded too happy? Doesn't matter, She didn't notice anyway, She was too beaming to listen to anything I said so I had to repeat myself .

"Fay"! Now she jumped in surprise and shakes her hand that caught a little burn.

"Ouch! honey, You startled me, You slept in late today, Tough night "? She was placing her hand under a stream of water from the sink to relieve the pain.

"Kind of..yeah" I wasn't exactly lying "lots of dreams " Bot sure if this one was a lie too because I don't really remember when my thoughts about ethan formed into wilde dreams. Fay poured us some coffee and kept singing. "Whip cream in the fridge " She said, and I took one huge step on the kitchen's marble floor and reached to it. I even allowed myself to put extra cream this time and on the heavenly smelling pancakes as well, while I was eating them as fast as I possibly could.

"What's the rush sweety? Do you need to be anywhere"? I felt a sting in my heart when the jock sank down and fay hurried to my side to hug me tightly and whisper :"You know you're not gonna stay here forever sweetie" Her voice soft like the whip cream mustache she had on her upper lip. I looked at her and I saw the doubt in her own eyes ." I'm serious Tay, in some point you will get married and have your own crazy family, and it wouldn't matter to you what Mr.Tibatti thinks of you , so smile hon" Her sweet smile wasn't gonna work on me this time, not anymore. She knew the chances that my dad will ever let me get married, are lower then the chances of him ever getting married again.

"Where's dad "? I was trying to change the subject as fast as i could.

"Off to work early today, you missed him by half an hour, he's supposed to be-" But this is where I stopped listening when I spotted a phone exactly like mine on the shelf in the huge living room, a charger was warpped around him carfully. I'm saved!! Now I just need to think of a way to get it without getting caught.

"Soo fay, you're in a good mood today, wanna tell me something i dont know.."? Im trying to sound intrested as much as I can while Fay's cheeks are going on fire and I'm already guessing what is it about. She tugged some red hair behind her ear and dried her chubby hands on her yellow apron. She had such a glowing that I actually felt bad for doing what I was about to do.

" I met someone" She's whispeing as if someone other then me is present in the room, her smile's never fading. I am glad for her, She deserves it, She's a good person and shouldn't have had stay with a "crazy" family like ours, but she did lose her husband to sickness and her unborn child in a car accident so I guess it doesn't get any worse then that.

"His name is Franck, he's from NY and he came here for a business trip but decided to delay his flight back so he can take me on a date!! Isn't that amazing"!? Her smile reached her big round eyes and I'm truly happy for her. I hug her and we both jump and scream untill hope lets out a scream of her own from up stairs and we burst out lauging.

"It really is amazing Fay Fay! Wow! He delayed a flight for you"! Now I was gazing over to the charger again and my finger tips are burning from eagerness. I need this charger,nand I need it now.

"So Fay.. I was thinking, you know,if you won't mind of course, cause I know it yours and you treasure it but ...", She was looking at me with a question mark jumping on her head," Would you mind teaching me how to make this amazing cake we ate last night? I think yesterday i fell in love in first taste" I know I sound stupid but again, she didn't notice and started telling me how the recipe was given from mom to her daughter for generations mean while I'm sneaking to the living room quietly, when suddenly she turns around and gives me a weird look. My heart skips a beat.

"Taylor..."' She whispers and I'm leaving the charger i was holding tight. Oh no ! oh freaking no!

" I can explain.." Can I? Her stare becomes really dark and I almost tell her everything on the spot, When she says " Taylor, i dont think i have the right dress for the date! What if he will think i don't know how to dress? that I have no taste In clothing at all? He will reject me and you know how hard it is to find men these days.." She puts her hand on her mouth when she adjust what she just said cause we bloody both know that no, I have no f##ing clue. I don't know anything a girl my own age should know and I'm still a bloody virgin, wich, I'm pretty sure, not even legal in my age.

Fay's getting paler by the seconds and I take an advantage of it and shove the damn charger to my jeans pocket.

"I am so sorry my darling, I didn't mean to-" She changed colors and I hurried to say "It's fine, if you excuse me, I'm gonna go upstairs and read a little " I'm not waiting for an answer and go up two stairs at a time and shut my door. She thinks I'm hurt but there are some things more urgent then this. My stupid life for example. As soon as I'm inside, I plug the charger into the phone and wait until the screen turns on. I bet he misses me like crazy. I bet he wonders where I am and whats taking me so long. The moment the phone works, (which seems like after a century), I hurried to check the message box.

empty.

empty?! How could it be?? My blood froze, I felt something burning in my eyes but I refused to believe its real. Ethan didn't look for me. He didn't miss me. Ethan doesn't care about me like I thought. I'm the pathetic one who waited all this time. This idiot that skipped a beat every time he crossed her mind. Im the one who cared too much, that dreamt too much, and Ethan? doesn't he...care about me Anymore..?