a love message

chapter 11

Ethan:rapunzel?

are you there?

dammit!

he's dead!

Eliot is dead!

so much blood!

rapunzel? !?

My heart is racing like crazy and my eyes are wide open.did he just wrote "dead"? this Eliot person is dead? his mate? Someone close to him? did he had a friend in the army and now he's dead? i felt how my body becomes stiff and tears starting to show.

Taylor tibatti: its ok Ethan, im here,t'is gonna be ok!

he's not gonna be ok but there's nothing i can do except that.his friend is dead,i can't bring him back..

Ethan: rapunzel! I'm losing it! so much blood! i can't see nothing but red! Eliot's gonna die for sure any minute!

wait, just wait a minute,Eliot' s alive? there's still a chance for him? why didn't he wrote it in the first place? ?

Taylor tibatti :Ethan breath, is there a doctor around? is someone taking care of him?

Of you..?

After a really long time of just sitting on the freezing cold floor, feeling totally useless, i heard the bipping sound.

Ethan: he's alive! he's holding up pretty good for now, thank god.i will let you know how he's  doing as soon as i know more.

I waited and waited,praying that everything will be ok.Ethan needs Elliott. please. ..please. .let him be ok..let him be ok..my shoulders were shaking as i cried my eyes out.it gotta be alright! for Ethan!

After my eyes were completely swollen and burning with tears , Ethan wrote again.

Ethan: he will live! Eliot will live! rapunzel! everything's gonna be ok! well maybe after i will wash off all of his bloody blood off my hands.

btw,sorry for storming on you like that,will it help if i tell you I'm crying like a girl right about now?

I hugged my pillow as tight as i could and swallow back the upcoming tears.

Taylor tibatti: Ethan, I truly  am happy for you..and if you're crying like a girl, im probably crying like a baby.

Ethan :you're. .you're crying?

Taylor tibatti: but of course,idiot! your friend almost died! what did you expect me to do? sing Taylor swift songs?!?

Ethan: well,no...i just didn't think you will care so much..

Taylor tibatti: Ethan, i thought i made myself clear when i told you i care about you and i can't get you out of my head!

everything that have something to do with you,is also my concern from now on! you have problems With that, jerk?

Ethan: just one.

Taylor to:wich is...?

Ethan: why didn't i bloody met you twenty years ago? why didn't you leave the diamonds tower before?

And again with the weird nick name. i wanna ask him about it but i know its not the right time for that. i feel like im melting from exhaustion but he needs me now,so i shake the feeling off and write:

Taylor tibatti: i believe this is what "fate" planned for us.

Ethan: ha,yeah,i suppose.

sorry for waking you up so late,i just..i needed to talk to you,You're the only one who can calm me down.

Taylor tibatti: not another word, totally get it! Just please, next time start with "my friend is about to die " instead of "my friend is dead " cause, you know, there's a small change between them..

Ethan: I'm sorry,truly,its just that..he didn't stop bleeding and i thought. .

Taylor tibatti: you thought he's not gonna last..

Ethan: yeah, you know, i don't know what will i do without this pain in the ass hanging around and making everything sounds like one big joke.everything, i swear.

Taylor tibatti: i wish i could've see everything as one big joke,the only exciting thing i ever did in my life was to run from my house and back in less then an hour,(if i don't include our big lost from so long ago)

Oh no,why did i wrote it? Now he will ask me about my past, wich i really don't like to talk about.i don't want him to evolve the subject. Its like spreading salt on my old wounds.

Ethan: hey,if you ever wanna talk about something, anything, you can.im here for you,believe me i know the feeling when you just want to forget about the past and look forward to the future.

My smile reached my eyes again. He's so precious.

Taylor tibatti: ❤

Ethan: ❤❤❤

I will let you sleep now rapunzel and get back to Eliot before someone will figure im stealing phones more often that they know.

Taylor tibatti:so that it? You leaving me by myself with six kids to look after? 

Ethan: im sorry honey ,the country's calling me,(and im really not in the mood for a bunch of screaming kids ) 

Im laughing quietly.

Taylor tibatti: good night loyal citizen.

Ethan: ha ha,good night citizen that i will protect over  with my life.

He's probably too shy to see my answer cause he's not online anymore. Adorable. I stare at the phone for a while and then it hit me.im probably gonna be worried sick about him through these three yearsof serving until i will lose it.

What if..like Eliot. .he can get hurt and...bleed until..until..NO! NO! I'm not thinking about it! He's gonna be fine! Hope is the only thing i have and i have to hold on to it.

With these thoughts and others, im getting into bed again and im sure i won't sleep until morning ,but with one single eyes blink i notice the day light sneaking in and replacing the horrible darkness of the previous night. Hope was already screaming for me to comw feed her.

For how long was i sleeping? And what time is it? I check my watch, 1:30pm. What? Was i sleeping for that long? I never slept till so late,why fay didn't came to wake me up? Check on me like every morning?  I shake the blanket off me and get into my furry pink slippers.

I open my room door and head to the stairs.its so quiet,i don't hear fay singing in the kitchen,flipping pancakes that usually  filled the house with amazing scent. I wonder where she went,she rarely leave the house...

Im waking toward her room.i don't go there often,i respect her privacy, but now im really worried about her.the room is empty and her belonging missing as well.my heart start to shrink in my chest and im  freaking out. Where the hell is fay? Im going to try the loundery room when i spot dad expressionless at the entrance and i freeze when i understand what happened without asking..