a love message

chapter 18

Chapter 18

The next few days were impossible.Sebastian was asking me about the package and what was inside it? where did I get it from ?

"Do you have a secret lover"? He asked me for the thousandth time on Thursday, two days before Ethan were supposed to come back to the army base. I was so worried at this point ,I couldn't barely hear the few people around me.

What if something happened to him? Ethan's too good of a guy to not sacrifice himself even for the army's sniffing dog.

I hope, now that I know he cares about me so much to give me something so expensive ,he will try his very best to live for me. He has to! Ugh! I can't take it anymore. I just. .can't.

"Taylor" ! Now Sebastian was shouting.  I blinked and looked at him with wonder.

"Sorry, did you say something "? We were both kind of playing chess ,I think,or was it cards. .Sebastian rolled his eyes giving up.

"Where the hell are you?! I'm right here! Can you actually dream about something better ? I doubt that.."

I smiled slightly in respond and guess I caught him unguard cause he looks at me surprised and get a little flushed around the nose and the ears.his freckles looks somehow darker wich made him look adorable.

"Are you ok? Ya look a bit flushed " I say and take a sip from my seriously well done milkshake. (Maybe I didn't like Bethany but,damn,her milkshakes were like drinking heaven.

Sebastian took his gaze away from me and stared blankly at the coffee table between us taking a sip from his milkshake as well.

"I'm fine, it's just a bit hot in here that it " he say and takes off his white shirt ,staying with a black undershirt. My heart's skipped a beat .is this some kind of a game? I try not to look and he smilies pleasantly. It's not like i like him this way,but I'm a human being and he was one too (a really hot one if you we're already sharing. .)

"I know you like what you see" he says and stretched his arms in a way that makes them looks bloody sexy. Muscular and sexy. What the hell is wrong with me?

"No I don't!  How can I like watching some idiot so desperate for attention that he actually needs to pull of the "it's too hot here for clothes " excuse. It's pathetic "

I get up and expect to see him all flushed again from embarrassment but no, he looks even more pleased. He leans on the sofa comfortably, his gaze laying on me with testing expression.

"Sweety, you don't have to be scared, it's totally normal to be attracted to a hot guy like me. I know you never had any guys around so you're not really sure how to respond to the burning hormones but it's ok,you can kiss me if it will make you feel better" he laughed and I felt myself getting stiff with burning anger.I wanted to scream at him I swear to god or slap him real hard but instead, I turned to exit the kitchen and go upstairs.

I belong only to Ethan. If it was Ethan I would've. .I would've probably lose it completely. I will kiss him until he will beg for me to let him breath. I want him to have his hands all over my body. I don't think I will ever get enough of him.

Wait,why do I even think I will get to meet him face to face? I don't think my dad will ever let me out if this place as long as he alive and I have a bad feeling he will die a lot after me. He would hold into life with all of his might until I will give my last breath. I know its sick but,come on,we're talking about my father here..

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It's late afternoon when I hear knocking on the door. Hope is trailing on the edge of my bed while I'm reading the hunger games for the fifth time.

"Who's there"? I'm shouting not bothering talking my eyes off the book.

"It's your old man,can I  come in? I need to talk to you about something " my father's saying behind the door and i freeze like I do quite a lot lately. Could be that Sebastian told him about the necklace? About me acting so strange ? I don't trust him and he have every reason to tell on me.he's one of these people who lives for action.this way they never get bored.

What if he did that to get a revenge on me for the way I talked to him.if Ethan's not dead by now,he will be as soon as he get back from the war.damn you Sebastian! I'm so gonna kill you when I get my hans on you...

"Come on in " i finally said and the door opened. Dad's kind of smiling. I wonder if that the kind of smile you give someone before you sent him to his painful dead.

"Sweety" ,he sighs and sits beside me on the bed ,hope's startled and fly to the top of the closet. I still couldn't catch my breath. We barely talked since ghost lady and her show off puppy moved in,what the hell can he possibly want? The feeling he know about Ethan getting more desperate.

"Look Ty Ty,this isn't easy for me ",he opens, slightly pale wich makes his eyes look really blue all of a sudden,it's usually happens when something serious going on.

"I got a job offer,a really good one.a better from the job I have here in Scotland and I'm seriously thinking about taking it" he seems excited  and full of life. I don't ask him what kind of job cause  I don't even know what dose he do here. He won't tell me,always secretive. I just know he makes a hell lot of money out of it and that's keeps us alive. He always dose whatever he want without sharing with me.even.though I'm the only family he has.

So why telling me about the job offer? I really don't think he wants my opinion. Even when it comes to choosing a movie for movie night I seem to have no place to speak my mind.

"Honey,this is a decision I made after doing lots of thinking. I've come to ask your opinion "  he says but I  know he's lying. He didn't, he just dose that trick every time to make me think I have control of something.Wich clearly I don't.

"Okay.." I pretend I felt good with myself about being part of this "team" and bloody hell he sighs again.

"What is it dad? Tell me or kill me,whatever comes faster" I try to light up the wired mood.

"Okay, here we go,we're moving "

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"Come again "?

"I know it's hard to believe, but this is for the best. I know you're scared to leave. I know you feel safe here and you understand that I'm doing a good thing by keeping you away from the rest of the world, so don't worry. "

"In the new house, we already have a new place in a really lonely and quite area , no one will ever get to you and you will never have to step out of the house again"

I'm listening with fire burning in my fingertips and the blood pounding behind my ears.

"W- where are moving "? I'm barely asking. I don't want to be even more far from Ethan. I don't want to feel like..like i have no chance of ever meeting him.maybe one day he will come back to Scotland we have a chance of..maybe..just maybe. .

"So..I know this is all really random ,but ,don't freak out..we're moving to London "

I dropped my book,leaving katniss and peeta to manage by themselves in the cave while I'm trying to catch my lost breath.