Makita Kang Muli

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Awu

Tahimik ang buhay dito sa bago naming bahay. May mga ilan na pumunta dito noong nakaraang araw at nakipagkapitbahay sa Mama ko.

Pero hindi talaga ako mahilig sa tao. I'm an introvert. I can't do a thing just like that. Gusto kong pinag-iisipan ko muna lahat, kahit anong anggulo. And I end up not doing it at all kasi overthinking ruined it already. Hindi rin ako ganoon ka vocal sa parents ko. I don't know. It's not in my culture to talk about things that are going on in my life. Like these letters.

Every three days, a letter will come up. And it became my routine.

At one letter, he told me that Pali wanted to have a walk but he couldn't do it kasi pagod siya. At one letter, he told me how he misses travelling to this address. He told me too that once or twice a year since Alex left this house, he would visit here. But now, he couldn't do it anymore. Because...I don't know. He never mentioned it why.

Kadalasan, eight in the morning, I would receive the letter. Pang third day na ngayon simula nung huling sulat niya sa akin saying that he watched the sunrise for the first time again kasi maaga siyang nagising.

When someone knocked to the gate, I immediately stood from the bench in the terrace and smiled.

"Good morning, Ma'am." the messenger said to me. "Paki-pirma na lang po dito."

And I signed my name there in the paper.

Sa sobrang excited ko, habang naglalakad ako ay binuksan ko na ang envelope.

I actually love the smell. I don't know. Parang amoy ng bagong libro, amoy ng mga papel na matagal ng itinatago.

             I got my hair cut today. You know how much I loved my hair, right? Ayaw ko nga pinapahawak sayo kasi magugulo. But guess what? My beloved hair is gone now. Nagpakalbo ako hehe. How about you? Is your hair still long and curly? How is it? I want to know, Alex. Ugh. As if magsusulat ka pabalik sa akin. Baka nga galit ka pa rin sa akin. O baka nga hindi mo man lang nababasa to. O baka wala naman nagbabasa nito. I'm sorry, Alex.

- elijah

Hanggang kailan siya magpapasorry kay Alex? Bakit ba kasi umalis siya ng hindi nagpapaalam?

I felt really sad after reading that letter.