A/N: Surprise I'm gonna go ahead and do the first few "introduction" chapters. Yay!
(Levi's P.O.V.)
My attention gets taken to the doorway yet again as movement occurs from its direction. Erwin slowly appeared around the corner. He gave me a sad grin as he strode up to my bedside. He sat down in a chair to my right, opposite of Eren, and fumbled with his hands. I could tell that he wanted to talk about something serious.
He hesitated as we stare at each other. Both of us could tell the wounds were still fresh from our fall out. Salty tears built up in my eyes as I attempted to force them away. "I'm sorry Levi. We were engaged.... we were planning our future together."
"Hmm... we were," I agreed. "I'm sorry too."
"For what?" He asked.
"What do you mean for what?" I said confused.
"Levi, you didn't do anything wrong, or Eren. What I mean is that I was dumb, I felt ashamed for what I did and blamed you. I never should have, even if you fell for the kid. " He said politely.
"Erwin I-"
"No, honestly I am happy for you. I'd rather have you happy with him than miserable with me." He said but with sadness though he tried not to show it. Of course, I still care for the guy, even if he betrayed me completely. We were together for a long time and he's dear to me even if I have no more feelings.
"I was never miserable with you," I said and his eyes widened. "I honestly can't say why I fell for him. I denied it because I was happy, or at least I thought I was."
"That's exactly it. You were happy with me... not in love with me. And that's okay." He sighed.
This struck pain in me. It was a truth neither of us wanted to accept. But in the end, I guess I really wasn't in love with him. Does that mean if Eren didn't show up, I would still be believing a lie? An illusion of what I thought love was? It was Eren who is showing me what real love is and I guess all of us are still learning. ".....I'm sorry," I say as a tear escapes down my cheek. Erwin took my hand to comfort me.
"You have nothing to be sorry for Levi. No one decides who they fall in love with...... And I... I can't apologize enough to make up for what I did to you." He explained as his voice becomes hoarse.
"We hurt each other," I mumbled.
".... We did." He whispered.
We look at each other in mutual agreement. We both played a part in this disaster. We both pushed the snowball down the mountain and we are now facing the avalanche. "What about you?" I ask. "Were you in love with me?........ Are you still?"
"I was... so it's even worse that I cheated." He hesitates, "But now? I'll always care but no... so don't be all worried about my feelings." The heaviness of this conversation was getting to the both of us. "Obviously it wasn't meant to be."
We stayed silent for a moment letting everything sink in.
"So what are you gonna do now?" I ask.
"... Well, Nile uh... he's letting me stay with him for the time being. He really likes me and I really like him too bu-"
"Then go for it." I interrupt.
"Are you sure? He was the gu-"
"Yeah..." The mood became sad again, "Truth be told, you said it yourself, we just weren't meant to be. I want you to be happy as well so....let me go." I consoled.
Erwin looked at Eren who was still asleep in the chair, "You love him."
I smile as I see his nose twitch in his sleep, "Yeah, I do."
