Hey God, It's Caty

5. In Pain And Depressed

Hey God,

It's Caty.

I just feel so down and depressed. I don't want to do anything or go anywhere. I just feel so sad all the time. I have no energy or motivation. I am still doing things but it's so hard when you feel so sad all the time. I feel like nobody understands me. I have been comparing myself to others. I get so upset when someone say that they hurt because they don't hurt like if you have fibormyaglia like I do.

My physical pain is out of control. I hurt SOO bad all the time. It makes my angry, frustrated, upset, sad, down, and depressed. I am so tired of hurting. I have been hurting for eight months and I don't see it getting better anytime soon. My pain doctor is mean to me. I don't know what to do anymore. I feel hopeless and worthless.

God, why are you putting me through this? I have been through eight years of hell with mental illness and now I have chronic illness. Can't something good just come my way? It's hard God for me not be angry at you. I just want to be happy, for once. I haven't been happy the past eight years. I want some happiness, is that to much to ask for?

God, I pray you help you. Even though I am still angry at you, I need you now more than ever. Please heal my pain. Help me get pain free. Please dear God, I have been in pain for months and I just can't take it anymore. If it is not Your Will to heal me, then please make me be happy. Help me not to be depressed. Because being depressed and in pain is killing me. Just help me O Lord, I need you. God, I really do love you and want to serve you. I am just struggling and I need your help. So please come into my heart and help me.

Lord, I also pray for my Mom, sister, and Dad. You know their needs Lord. I pray you help them, comfort them, heal them, love them, and comfort them. We need you Lord.

I pray you also help the person reading this. You know their needs Lord, please help them.

In all this, I pray, in Your holy name Lord, In Jesus's name, Amen.

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Hey guys! I know it's been a while since I have updated and I am so sorry about that. In this post I really opened up and showed you guys and God how I am really doing. I hope you enjoy it. If you have any prayer requests, feel free to message me! ❤️

-xoxo Caty❤️