bright blue eyes ;; l.h. + a.i.

s i x

I grinned and bit my lip as Luke and I walked to the edge of the rooftop. He was grasping onto my hand and I was giggling to myself softly. I was assuming he was afraid if heights, but he's just too 'macho' to admit it.

"You afraid of heights?" I ask as we neared the edge. He scoffed and gripped my hand tighter.

"What? Of course not!" He exclaims. I giggle and start drawing imaginary circles on his skin. I feel goosebumps prick at his milky white skin.

"It's okay if you are. I'm not laughing, am I?" I bump shoulders with him and he chuckles breathily.

"No, but you were." He points out. I bring a hand up to my chest in mock shock.

"I don't recall, but whatever." I admire him as he laughs loudly, he looks really beautiful. And yes, guys can be beautiful too.

"I've been afraid of heights ever since-" he cut himself off as he sighed. I look at him and finally let myself meet his bright blue eyes, not caring if he could decipher the emotions swirling through my hazel eyes.

"My older brother, Ben, he jumped off the bridge. He hated life. He felt alone, even though I reminded him that he had me and he would never lose me." He lets out a shaky breath before continuing.

"He jumped off the bridge, ending his life before it began. I haven't seen him since I was twelve. And ever since then, I've been afraid that I would do what he did." The tears streamed down his cheeks. I wrapped my arms around him. He sank into my side and I didn't let go until his sons began soft whimpers.

"It's not like I'm sducidal or want to hurt myself. It's just like, sometimes I don't want to live anymore because it seems pointless. Or I wonder if anyone would even care or not." He breath out. He sniffled and it made my heart stammer

"I care. I always will. Even if we're on opposites sides of the world. I will always care." I whisper. Because I feel like everything will shatter if I'm too loud. I feel like he'll act like everything was the way it was before this. Before he knew someone cared for him like I do.

"What's happening to me?" He asks, I don't know if he was actually talking to me though. But I answer him anyways.

"Life." I say simply. He sighs and stuffs his face into my neck. His warm berth making me shiver.

"I'm scared." He whispers.

"Don't be." I rub his arm and he looks up at me with teary blue eyes.

"Why not?" He sniffles and wipes his nose. I smile softly and he tries to smile back.

"Because you have me." I see him blush and he hugs me.

"I'm glad I'm not alone." He kisses my cheek and I press my forehead against his. He smiles and I feel his breath fan against my face. It smelled minty.

"You won't be alone from now on." I whisper. He closes his eyes and nods.

"Don't leave me." He says.

"Wouldn't think of it. We're in too deep now. You're stuck with me. I'm forcing my friendship down your throat." I chuckle and mentally wince at the word 'friendship'. Friends, that's all we'll ever be.

"I'm not complaining." He giggles and I smile. I finally take my eyes off the boy and look over the edge of the concrete. There were lights twinkling and cars driving about. I smiled.

"Now I remember why I would always come up here." I find myself saying.

"Why?" He asks. I look at Luke with a smirk on my face.

"The killer view." I turn my attention back over the night life. He follows my gaze and gasps.

"It's beautiful." He whispers.

"Yeah." Is all I say.

There was a silence. We both just observed the city. He didn't know you could look at something from this point of view. We can see what the clouds can see. The birds, stars, moon, sun, everything that has seemed too out of reach. Everything that we felt like was too far away. Everything that we would just admire from below.

"Life's a bitch," he says. I look at him and scrunch my brows in confusion.

"What?" I ask.

"Life's a bitch, right?" He looks at me and cocks his head to the side adorably.

"Yeah. But she's a cool bitch, like Marilyn Monroe." I wink and he bumps shoulders with me. I giggle and he shakes his head.

"You're a dork. But you're a cute dork so it works." He says.

"I'm cute?" I ask.

"Well, yeah." He laughs out and blush turning my attention back to the city bellow us.

"Thanks. You're cute too." I wink and he smiles at me. We spend the next few minutes just looking around us. Ever since I met Luke, I haven't felt suffocated. I've be looking for that jump I'm life.

I look at Luke. He's sitting cross legged and his head is resting in his palms. His eyes are wide and his lips are spread in a small smile. I pull out my phone and unlock it. I try to be as silent as possible as I raise the phone. The lights are illuminating making him look breathtaking. I quickly snap a photo.

"Luke, what's your number?" I ask. He smiles and hands me his phone. I hand him mine and he types in his number. I do the same and spend a bit of time trying to choose a contact name. It looks like Luke's having the same problem. I smile and type in the name.

Ashy c;

I go to the messages and send myself a quick note.

"Me :

Hey cutie cx"

Luke jumps when my phone vibrates and looked at me when he saw his number popped up on the screen. I smile widely and he finalizes his name and goes to the message. He smirks and types a reply.

"Ashy c; :

Yo :p"

I grin and take my phone back. I make the picture I took of the blonde his icon. I check the time and sigh. 3:15. I have to leave.

"Luke," I begin."I have to go." I mumble. He frowns and nods. I stand up and give him my hand. We go back the way we came, and ended up on the street.

He hadn't dropped my hand which made me all warm inside. I knew I was beginning to feel something stronger towards the tall blonde. I was just hoping he would feel the same. After all, the only other person I had ever felt strongly for was Calum. That didn't end too well.

I know Luke know's how I feel, because his boyfriend had cheated on him as well. But I'm just hoping if we do ever get together, it'll be just what we need.