His (Namjoon's) POV
My heart had quickened its tempo as I reached for the keys that would not only allow me passage into my car but would also make me stand shaking, face to face with the demons in my heart.
It was frightening to have decided to take such a step where I could possibly have the puppeteer conquering his place over my heart strings finally break from his role....but ultimately be as lost as I once was without him.
Life was much simpler waiting and waiting, dreaming for something to pass but it was so much more difficult planting your own two feet in front of that Iron door and ripping it open yourself, regardless of the blood that may come beneath your fingernails.
It was so much more difficult stepping out of our Magic Shop
It was so much more difficult stepping
It was so much more difficult standing
It was so much more difficult facing
Facing your demons.
I don't want to lose you Sura....
I don't
But I have to do this.....I have to tell you
And I have to tell you everything
You deserve so
So so much more
And so...I have to....please forgive me.
As the wheel I would use to drive my life forward now rested beneath the two of my palms I promised myself one thing.
I promised myself to know there would be no eye of the storm this time
I promised to know that the force with which the storm would come would happen terrifyingly and all at once.
I promised myself to prepare for the rain.....
and understand that there may not be a rainbow afterwards.
I promised myself to feel but moreover, to live.
Tears had already begun streaming down my cheeks but I did my best to push them aside...I wanted to see the road clearly...I wanted to feel the pain purely...I had to know how it would be like....to feel the consequences of my actions.
I needed to know...to know what I put my Sura through.
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Her | Kim Namjoon
Fanfiction"She deserved someone she loved and someone who loved her...someone who placed her above everything as if she was his diamond...the one who shone so brightly in his eyes he always wanted her to be just as happy as she made him...She was an angel...
