internet friends;; phan

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**Mentions of depression, self harm and abusive relationships, nothing too triggering but definitley be careful if you have past experiences with this stuff**

phils pov

The film comes to an end and Dan has fallen asleep clinging to me and Adi has fallen asleep kind of leaning on my shoulder, Karen and Bill went to bed half a hour or so ago. I squeeze dan a little bit,
"baby, the film has finished" i say softly as he wakes up and rubs his eyes with the sleeves of the hoodie he's wearing.

"Hm okay," He gets up and looks over at Adrian who's still asleep leaning on me,
"Aww, it's his first week in his new class and he's been so stressed"

I smile at how close they are and pick Adi up, gesturing for Dan to show me where his bed is.

We walk quietly into adi's bedroom and I put him in his bed gently and tiptoe back out.

"you guys get along so well its actually the cutest thing" Dan gushes and I giggle
"He's such a lovely little boy and its obvious you care about eachother a lot" I say in reply walking with him back to dan's bedroom.

We lay on Dan's bed together, Dan laying basically ontop of me -
"I'm not tired anymore" Dan whines and I laugh,

"That's what you get for falling asleep the minute the film started," He giggles,

"I didn't, you know I heard you and Adi talking. I'm sorry I didn't tell you about my depression, or about my asshole ex" He says quietly, sounding ashamed.

"oi no no no, you didn't have to. You are not your mental health Bear, you shouldn't be defined by it" He looks up at me and smiles,

"Still, I feel like I owe you a bit of an explanation. Basically, his name was Leo and he was so fucking horrible Phil, he would hit me and he'd minipulate me into thinking I was the one in the wrong. That lead to me hurting myself and then one time when I almost killed myself, my mum found me and took me to hospital. I had to stay there for months. Weekly therapy sessions and my Therapist suggested watching people on youtube, you were in my reccomended and I watched you and everything seemed to get better. You've been my main source of happiness for so fucking long. I love you so much, as Adi said, you literally saved me Phil. And I cant thank you enough"

Dan rants and I feel warm tears make their way down my cheeks and I hug him so fucking tight and press a firm kiss on his head.
"I love you Dan and I'm so proud of you for being so strong and for telling me about it. You deserve every good thing this world has to offer and I'm willing to be a source of happiness in your life for as long as you want me to be."

Dan starts crying and kisses me,
"thankyou so so much, for everything"