Love That Fly Away

Apology part-2

"Please just let me explain things to you...." he tried to explain again.

"Okay. Lets talk straight. What if i forgave you? Then what? What's next?" I said and looked at him.

He went silent and let out a sign. And looked at me. His eyes were pleading.

"I......." he started but then stopped again.

"You what?" I replied in my complete bitch mode.

"We... can stay together.." he said after taking so many breaks.

I smirked at him and laughed at him making him feel akward.

"Lisen if this is what you want. I have forgiven. But i can NEVER EVER TRUST YOU AGAIN" i said the last part with gritted teeth.

"I will keep trying to gain your trust back then. " he replied with complete confidence.

I stared at him and he stared back at me. It was more like a challenge between us.

"Try... and leave now. " i said in my angered voice.

He looked at me and his eyes went soft. It was more like he was trying to say something with his eyes. I could see how hurt he was. But i just don't wanted to believe that. I can't trust him again. I can trust him. I repeted this in my head while looking at him.

"Okay. If this makes you happy. I will leave. Take care. " he said the last part and left.

And the moment he left. It felt like something was taken from. I don't know why but i felt so defeted like i dint wanted him to go. I just just there leaning on the balcony and covered my face with both my hands and silent tears started streaming from my eyes. I don't know why i wanted him stay? What if he don't come back? What if it was the last time we met? All of this thoughts started running my mind haunting me.

"Are you okay?" Sia asked after few minutes. I dint even realised when she came.

"Haa? " i looked at her confused. What just happened. I came here to lift my mood and now am crying again. Am back to those scary memories again.

"Let's get downstairs. Come .." sia grabbed my hand and we went downstairs.

We sat at the couch. Movie was still on. But no one was paying attention to it.

"How did he came here?" I looked at sia . Frowning at her.

"Am sorry. I thought you still love him and that small misunderstanding can fix...." she started telling.

"Please get to the point. " i replied frustrated.

"He asked me few days ago. Of i could arrange a place for you two to meet. Since he can't come to your house. And he can't meet you out either cuz you will say no to him anyway...." she said looking at the pillow she was holding.

"So you asked him to come to your house..?" I asked frustated again.

"No..." she said and looked at me " Trust me i told him its not good. She don't want to meet you. But he was so persistent. And am sorry but i thought... i just wanted to see you happy. I know you still love. And he was genuinly sorry for what he did. I know things have become complicated now. But... i thought may be.. it can fix. I just wanted to see you happy. " she replied looking at me.

"Well now i am happy. You can see the happiness dripping from my eyes. " i laughed humorlessly at her.

"I am sorry" she said again.

"Its ok. I can understand. Its just so frustating how things changed so easily. " i replied staring blankly at the  t.v screen.

"Hey everything will be alright." She said and grabbed me for a hug.

"Its ok if you don't want to be with him. " she said hugging me.

"Its not like that." I said more to myself.

She pulled away and looked at me confused. "Tell me what exactly is going on in your mind. " she asked looking at me.

"I don't hate him. Am hurt. I can never love anyone else ever. " i completed and lifted my eyes to see her expressions.

"Awww! Sweetheart give it some time. Time will heal everything. May be everything get fixed. You never know" she said chearing me up.

I took a breath nodding at her.

"Enough drama for today. Lets go for sleep then tomorrow will go for shopping for London. Yeahhh" she cheered in excitement making me smile.

"We havn't pass the entrance yet." I said standing from the couch.

"Stay positive. We will go london. You will see." She replied with confidence.

"Okay" i replied and we went to her room.

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