Atlas: FTWD (Nick/Troy) Fanfiction

13 // venus

"i was a billion little pieces, till you pulled me into focus" 

venus, sleeping at last

venus - named for the Roman goddess of love and beauty; represents the area of your life concerned with love, seduction, beauty, material goods and arts

Troy

I left Lucy in a hurry and as bad as I feel for hurting her so deeply, nothing can overpower my need to see Nick right now. My mind is spinning and I know the only thing that can cause that feeling to cease is being back in his presence. As I race through the house, I feel like I'm going in circles as my eyes dart around in every direction, searching for him.

Suddenly, I feel a hand on my shoulder that stops me in my place. For a moment, I think it could be Nick but there was no rush of tingles that accompanied their touch, so I realize it can't be him.

"Slow down, partner. What are you looking for?" I'm surprised to see Frannie staring at me concernedly with her eyebrows hitched. I continue to glance around the crowded room, my heart and mind racing.

"Nick," Is all I say and her expression relaxes before she nods silently and starts leading me toward the stairs.

"You know where he is?" I question, my voice growing smaller and smaller with every second as we make our way up the stairs. We weave past drunken idiots who passed out with bottles in their hands and couples basically fucking before she's taking me up a third floor.

"Since when was this here?" I mumble to myself and she laughs slightly as I follow her up the narrow staircase. Within seconds, I'm blasted with that familiar scent and my stomach drops slightly. This is where he's been for the past who knows how long? He dipped on me to go smoke with different people? I'd like to say that didn't hurt, but I'd be lying to myself.

"Anyone seen Nick?" Frannie asks loudly and my eyes dart around the room as I don't find the one person I'm looking for. My eyes land on Gunner who is looking up at me with wide eyes.

"Hey, where is he?" I ask him directly and at this I notice the same blonde girl that I almost fully hooked up with that one night...

"He's, um...he's looking for you," Gunner finally speaks and my heart soars at his words.

"He's...looking for me?" I'm astounded to actually hear those words. No one's ever looking for me. He just nods silently and a smile breaks out onto my face at this. Maybe he knows...maybe he feels the same. I'm tired of maybes. It's time to get some damn answers.

"Go find him, Troy," Gunner smiles encouragingly with a twinkle in his eye. Even that blonde is smiling up at me from where she's sprawled over some random guy. I look back to Frannie who's gazing at me with amazement in her eyes.

"You two are like something out of a damn fairytale," She just shakes her head with her eyebrows lifted as she smokes her cigarette.

"Something like that," I mumble before rushing down the stairs and running back into the center of the party.

"Nick?" I call out idiotically, everyone will know my feelings for him. Something hits me like a ton of bricks right then and there. I don't give a shit if people know about my feelings. I want the whole damn world to know.

"Nick?" I continue to call out his name as I make my way outside. The brisk chill feels like nothing on my arms as I keep walking, searching around the drunken party goers who are littering the lawn.

"Oh, hey, Brent," I run up to a familiar face and he raises his beer when he notices me. "You seen Nick?" His eyes almost bug out of his head.

"Yeah, I saw his ass climbing up to the roof. Asked him what the fuck he was doing...what did he say...oh yeah! He was looking for you!" My heart pounds at this second confirmation. He's looking for me. And he's on the roof. Oh shit. He's going to the roof and he's high as fuck. Not good.