My wife, Raglak

Impulsive

Hi all.

I know by hearing this word, only one person comes to your mind. But here in this chapter, it isn't laksh who is impulsive but ragu. Hope you will like it.
Here you go.

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Next day:

I woke up as usual, but something pained me, well it is not about my marriage truth, because I understood the family’s situation. It is about Laksh, I am worried about him, of course, I would be, arrey, I love him na.

Laksh stared at her for a while.

I wanted everything to be normal, and you know how much I hate emotional talks, so I thought to act as if nothing happened. I went to the kitchen and was preparing coffee when Sanskar to me.

He looked guilty, I smiled at him.
He was about to apologise to me, but I told him it is not needed. Because I know what made them do all these. It was their love for him. He asked me if I will give his brother back. He appeared hopeful; there was fear in his eyes, fear of losing his brother. He loves Laksh a lot!

Lak: I know he does, but Sanskar, if I quit my game, then it would be never me, you will not get your brother back.

I know it pains him to see his brother’s life at stake. I can understand his feelings because I too am feeling the same, the fear of losing him. I feel a deep pain in my heart. But then, Chachi told me they compelled him for the past three months and he didn’t listen, doesn’t it shows the passion he has for his game? The love he has for his game? I asked Sanskar about it, but he doesn’t seem to be listening to me, he was adamant on getting his brother back. He wanted me to make Laksh quit the game.

I told him that I need time to make a decision. He nodded and left.
The rest of the day passed like this, all tried to pressurise me, but I stood adamant. Firstly because it was Laksh’s life and the decision should be his alone, and about me supporting the family, before that I have to make sure by myself that it is the best decision for him and the others.

Even though it kills me thinking that I  may lose him, but somehow I feel like he should continue his passion, I have seen the spark in his eyes!

God, why is this so confusing, please help me, show me the right path!
Good night.

Laksh was in tears, he was realising the position he puts his family in, but, he can’t quit his game, he just can’t!!

Few days passed by, without much happening, then

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Again diary.

Oh my God, what I have I done? Why did I do so? WHY??

That stupid idiotic thing. Oh, how I hate it!!  Damn, that irritating thing, you just tell it to get out of my body, I don’t want it inside me anymore.

Laksh was thoroughly confused.

That dump heart of mine, you say, have I ever, I mean ever gone against it? No na, then why?? Why didn’t it listen to me, why it had to be vulnerable, act on impulses?? That stupid thing, I no more want my heart with me.

Laksh looked at Ragini disbelievingly; he can’t believe that she was scolding her heart!
He shook his head and continued reading.

You might be wondering why I am scolding my heart because you don’t know about the blunder it did today.

When I returned from college, I saw Laksh’s car in the parking. I was confused; he told me he would be back by tomorrow, then why today.

Again I saw the whole family waiting for me the living room, and this wasn’t giving me any positive vibes. But they were relieved to see me.

Chachi told me Laksh is back, yeah I know he is.

He was back because he was feeling low, and that happens when his performance is low. That time he comes to his room, spent some time there, and then goes back to the camp.

It is like an energy filler for him.
Chachi asked me to stop Laksh by taking advantage of the situation. I was shocked because till now I didn’t reach a conclusion. I told her so.

She scolded me and ordered me, even though I didn’t like it, I didn’t mind i. It was her concern over him.

Lak: Even then what was the need to scold her Chachi? She was not wrong!

Without saying anything, I went towards my room. But hesitated to enter, because Uttara told me that he likes to sit alone, and I don’t want to spoil his privacy.

Laksh smiled gratefully.

But I had to, hadn’t I?  Arrey, I am so tired, I wanted to get fresh na, so without any option, I went in. He smiled at me and I went to get fresh. He was sitting by the window, trying calming his mind.

I came back and saw that he was still very upset. It pained me to see him so, and then, my stupid idiotic heart, without even consulting with my brain it led me to Laksh and you know what it did?? It made me encourage him, yes, it did. I encouraged him; I supported him when I decided that I will support neither him nor family without any clarification. I have warned my brain and heart about this, a few days back and kept telling this every now then. Even then, my heart didn’t listen to me.

Laksh went back soon with a determined face. Meaning my encouragement affected him.
See, now what I will do? I really don’t know whether I did right, I am so scared. I am scared for him, for family. How could I act on impulses? Just because I couldn’t see him sad, I can’t do something like this. For the time being, he was happy, but what if it was temporary, what if his permanent happiness lies in quitting the game? God, why did I do this?
I hate my heart.

Anyway, you have a good night, mine is gone. I am so scared!

Laksh smiled sadly. He too remembers that day very well, because after a long three months, that day he got peaceful sleep. Her words encouraged him very much and he played very well, that too till late at night. He was very happy with his performance and was very grateful to her for encouraging. But that time he didn’t know the thing which gave him a peaceful sleep just took her sleep away!!

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