Criminal Heroes ~ NCT Fanfic

Part 11 - ...And my past

After eating way more food then two persons normally can eat in one meal, we put the empty jars on the floor next to the couch.

"Please, tell me what's going on...", Johnny begins.

I sigh softly.

"What do you want me to tell first? What happened this morning or why i'm acting this way.", i say.

"I thought you were crying because of what happened this morning..."

"Partly..."

"Okay... First tell me what happened this morning, because i don't really understand it.", he says.

"Well, i woke up to make breakfast, when Lucas walked in. It looked like he just came out of the shower, but he acted a little strange when he came in. But i ignored it. At one point, he came closer to me and wrapped his arms around my waist. I asked him what he was doing and.... and.. and... and.... He begin to kiss.... to kiss my neck.... and... and.. I.... I asked him to stop.....", i say, stuttering.

"Shhh... Talk slowly and try to stay calm...", he says, trying to comfort me.

"He... He turned me around and pushed me against the wall.... He began to kiss me.... He began to kiss me roughly... And.... And i couldn't stop him.... He... He just... And i felt like i couldn't breath.... ", i say, shuddering.

I feel anger just radiating from his body.

"I'm going to do something to him! I'm going to kill him if i find him! Why would a person do something to you?!", he yells.

I take his hand and puts it in my lap, because i know it makes him calm down a little.

"When you and Taeil came in and saw us.... It... It... It just remembered me of that awful thing that happened a few years ago.... ", i say softly.

I feel tears streaming down my face.

I feel how Johnny comes closer to me and takes me into his arms.

He is completely calm again.

"Shhhh, you can tell about it if you want... It maybe helps when you talk about it..", he says, while holding me tightly.

We are now both laying on the couch, really close against each other.

But it feels nice.

It makes me want to say what happened when i was just 15 years old.

"When i was just 15 years old.... I... I have been raped...."

I feel i startled him with this, because he takes my hand and sqeezes it a little.

"I was on riding my bike and i came back from a birthday party of a friend of mine and it was already late. At one point, i saw a guy laying on the ground next to a random car. I stopped, because i thought he was maybe dead or something. I took my phone out and wanted to call an ambulance, when.... When i felt someone grabbing my wrists.... I... I looked up and it was the man and he... He looked drunk.... He took my phone and smashed it on the ground..... He... He pushed me against the car and he..... He raped me....", i say, crying again.

I don't want to talk about the details, because it is only going to make me feel worse.

I feel how Johnny touches my face with his right hand. He begins to hum softly a random song, because he knows it calms me.

"You don't have to talk about it anymore. The most important thing is that you talked about it with someone, so you don't have to be scared. I'm going to protect you with everything i can. I'm not going to leave you alone...", he says, going with his fingers through my hair.