Rock Your Body

Chapter Twenty-Eight🎶

three days later...

"Belly?"

"...."

"Mommy??"

"...."

"Mommy...I love you."

I sigh and throw the pillow off my head. Bianca frowns as she sees my eyes still a blushing shade of red and my body still in the same sweatpants and wifebeater from three days ago, still sad.

"I love you too Beebee."

"When will we see Chris again?" Bianca lays her forehead on mine, hugging my arm. I bring her tiny body closer to me and hug the life out of her. Little giggles escape her mouth, and I smile a tiny bit. It even hurts to smile.

"...I don't know."

After all that went down on that night with the car crash...I told Chris to tell Trevor to leave as I had a doctor wrap up and bandage my fist.

I've been depressed for the past few days. I'm always telling Brianna to check my phone every hour to see if its the hospital for my mom, and I'm practically forcing Bianca not to leave the right side of my bed.

I told Chris he needs some time away from me. He refused at first, of course. He took me home, laid in bed with me that night, but now he's been back home. I didn't want him to neglect his mama and sister that miss him like crazy. I told him I'd call or text the next time he could visit...but who knows when that'll be.

"Mommy...um, can you...take a shower?"

"I look that bad, huh?" I chuckle lightly.

"No, you stinky. You smell like butt." She giggles.

"Aye, nooo you stinky!" I poke her stomach and playfully sniff her armpit in disgust

"Nuh uh!!! I take bath last night!"

"Mhmmm..." I yawn and close my eyes.

"Mommy!!! No more bed!" Bianca rips the covers out of my hands and I pout for them back as I curl up into a ball.

"Ugh. I need Chris help..." Bianca shakes her head, tugging on my feet.

"Fine fine...I'll take a shower." I sigh.

"Yay!"

Bianca leaps off the bed to run to the bathroom and turn the shower on for me. It's her favorite thing to do.

"Hey, Sleeping Beauty. You're up!" Tanya peaks in my room with a smile.

"Yeah...too damn early for a shower..." I grumble.

"Shut up sis, it's 4 in the afternoon." Tanya rolls her eyes and helps me find a clean towel.

"Bella, Chris keeps texting you on all your apps. I can't play Fortnite with his notifica-"

"Ignore them. He'll forget about me eventually." I shrug.

"Aye! Sis you did NOT just say that!" Tanya lightly slaps my cheek and I roll my eyes.

"You know what Bella, I'm inviting him over for dinner tonight-"

"Tanya, no." I groan. "I've been ignoring everybody for a reason. I don't care anymore. Life is fucking stupid and full of lies. What's the point of it anyway? If there's a God, wouldn't he be helping me find answers? You know...it's whatever, I'll be dead soon enough within-"

"MOMMY!!!" Bianca yells angrily from the bathroom door and I jump, darting my head instantly to her.

"W-what?!"