Finally - Mark Tuan x Reader

6: And Then It Wasn't.

You had an amazing life; Everything was fine, you and your family were together, you weren't hungry or thirsty and you had everything you needed in life. You had completely forgotten about Mark's bruises and since he had no new ones there was nothing to suspect. Joo-wonie started school in a month and you were all happy as can be. And to add to that, you had just tested positive-- you were going to have another baby!!

Everyone was ecstatically happy, and you would never forget the look of joy on Joo-won's face when you told him he was gonna have someone to play with. Everything was perfect.

And then it wasn't.

There was a ringing in your ears which slowly faded out to the beeping of an unknown yet familiar noise. All you could see was the almost glowing black of the inside of your eyelids. You heard lots of voices sounding panicked yet focused.

"Hurry, she's gaining consciousness!" The voice that spoke was masculine and spoke with a lot of authority. You felt a sudden pain in your chest. The smells reminded you of when you were five, when your mum attempted to fix your twisted ankle with a medkit, except the smell was stronger. Everything smelled very clean, mixed with a light smell of vanilla. It reminded you of cleaning supplies, to the point that it was overpowering. You tried to wrinkle your nose, but you couldn't really feel your body. There seemed to be a strong force fighting for full control of your body. You started trying to fight back.

Think, [Y/N]. Why are you here? You try to recall any previous memory, and your heart begins to ache, but a different pain than last time. A pain that seemed to fully consume you, like a cry of warning. It was as if you yourself were trying to suppress the memories.

You let go of the feeling as if you were pushing away a solid block of emotion. You wish you hadn't.

It all came back like a thunderstorm. He was yours, you were his, you were happy. But not really. Nothing had changed.

None of it was real.

They were still gone.

He still hated you.

He still had your baby.

He never loved you back.

You were hallucinating.

Every breath began to feel forced rather than subconscious.

You were in a coma.

You are in a coma.

You don't want to be here.

It's not like it matters.

Your brain fed you lies to prevent this. The euphoric feeling became too overwhelming and you couldn't tolerate the deceit anymore, which woke you up. Your body thought this was better than continuing to lie to yourself.

Your body thought wrong.

You stopped fighting the force, you let it splash over you like a wake-up call, except it was doing the opposite. You could feel the darkness taking over you and hear a long continuous beep somewhere in the distance, which soon took over your head and turned to silence. 

You'd like to say thank you. You'd like to express how relieved you are that it's finally over. You'd like to apologise for all that you've put everyone through.

But you see nothing. You feel nothing. You think nothing. 

With the absence of all else, though, came the absence of pain. But also the absene of comfort.

The absence of sadness, but also the absence of happiness.

The absence of neglection, but also the absence of love.

There was an absence of all but absence itself. 

There was an absence of working lungs.

There was an absence of a heartbeat.

There was an absence of you.

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[A/N]:

Not over yettttt, brace yourselves for the next chapter ^-^.

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