Not you again - Luke Hemmings

Chapter 18

Alison

The day was finally over, I managed to not talk to Sammy nor Luke. I grabbed my back as the bell rang getting up. Maybe I should go to the library today, I kind of need to keep going. I sighed, I was still feeling sick, the stomach ache was killing me and I felt dizzy and cold. Maybe I should eat a bit today to not really become sick and miss classes. But on the other hand, I'm still having enough body fat to not need eating. I'm so unsure, I don't want to gain weight because of it.

I sighed again pulling down my sleeves so they covered my cold hands. It October already so it's getting quite cold outside. I was just walking to the library when I froze in my steps. Luke and Michael we're walking towards me. Shit, I just wanted to hide when Luke looked at me.

"Alison! Wait, I need to talk to you." he shouted jogging towards me. Running away is no option, it would just look pathetic. I looked down, seeing his black shoes stopping right in front of me.

"What? We don't need to talk." I just stated feeling self-conscious right after saying it. I should stop being sassy towards him.

"We do. I... I wanted to apologize." he sighed placing his hands on my shoulders. I lightly flinched away from his touch. I wanted to slap his hand away, scream at him, maybe even hit him right in the face, but at the same time I wanted to hug him, being reassured and maybe even kissed on the forehead, by him. I did nothing, I just stood there, unsure of what to answer.

"It's okay." I lied still looking at his shoes. I don't want him to be mad at me, when he thinks I accepted his apology maybe he will leave me alone.

"Really? No, what? Are you serious?" Oh no, he wasn't believing it.

"Yes, everything's fine. Please, just let me be." I answered sounding rather desperate.

"No, that's not what I meant. I want to make it up to you." he said now touching my cheeks with his hands.

"No you don't have to." I sighed and gathered all my bravery. "I don't want you to." I looked up at him, scared of his reaction.

He was definitely taken aback. His face showing that he was quiet unsure of what to say. I took this as my opportunity to leave. I sure wasn't in the mood to go to the library anymore.

"Bye." I just said turning around wanting to leave. I felt his hand on my shoulder holding me back.

"I will still keep trying to make it up to you." he whispered loud enough for me to hear. I looked him in the eyes seeing that he was serious. My look was pleading. "I'm really sorry. I... I want to be your... friend." I looked back down. Without saying a word I walked away.

"Have I missed something?" I heard Michael ask quietly. Right, he hasn't been there today morning.

"Alison." I heard Luke again, this time not shouting for me to stop.

I sighed again walking through the exit. It was raining, how lovely. I pulling the hood of my hoodie over my head, knowing I will still get wet.

It hurt so much leaving Luke standing there. I hated the part of me who wanted Luke to make it up, who wanted to really forgive him. By now some hot tears were running down my cheek, now I was happy about the rain. Gathering myself back together and whipping away the tears, I took out the key to open the door to my dorm. I was surprised to find everyone already home.

"Hello." I quickly said going into my room.

I stripped out off my wet clothes, putting on something comfortable, laying down on my bed. I sighed again, why was everything so fucked up? Why can't I have a crush on someone else?... I mean I don't have a crush on Luke, he's may too much of an asshole for it....