Unspoken Words ✔

The Girl You've Broken

This might be a bit long. I found this poem in my poem book and its really personal but I decided to share. Its like, really personal and so many emotions came to me when I read it over. I hope you guys like it. I'm gonna go cry now :)

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I can't deny the fact that I loved you. I still do even to this day. And what confuses me is why I still love you. After you took my heart in your hands and crushed it in every way. You took my love for granted and all I wanted was for you to love me back.

That's all I ever wanted from you.

Something inside of me told me that some way, somehow you loved me, I don't believe it now, but I'd like to think that maybe you did. But every time I remember what you did to me, just to see me go lower and lower has me hating you. Regretting the day I ever met you. But even though you've hurt me, I still find myself loving you. And I know its not healthy to have you constantly on my mind but you are. Dammit, you are.

I will always love you.

No matter what I say or do, I will forever store you in my heart.

And this is why I need to  let you go.

You have me stuck. I can't love anyone else because I'm afraid they'll hurt me like you once brutally did. I don't want that to happen. But I need to move on, I want to feel loved for once.

And I'm just asking you please to let me free. Please let me move on.

Please stop coming into my mind and breaking my heart even though your so far away. Please stop. I hate you so much that I can't stop loving you. And I want to bring myself to put you away. The fact that you knew I had feelings for you but you decided to step all over them is another reason as to why I can't keep letting my heart hold on to you.

Hoping that maybe one day you'll come back. That maybe one day you'll come back and see how stupid you were. Hoping that when you come you'll say that you love me and that you missed me. That one day you'll finally take me and make me yours. It sounds too in my head, but in reality, I know that will never happen.

And that hurts way more than the times I've spent at nights crying and cutting my wrists for you.

It hurts more than the many pills I've taken to destroy myself because of you.

I hope your happy, love of my life. You've ripped out my heart and had broken it into a million pieces. How could you do that? I'm left to find the missing pieces and I have no clue where to.

If you weren't planning on coming back, then why did you take my heart with you?

I don't know how you manage to  live with the fact that you've completely torn me apart.

How do you live knowing that you've took everything in my life away with just your eyes and words?

My happiness, laughter, smile, heart, tears, dignity and whatever sanity I had left in me. You took it away. You took everything.

You've destroyed me.

A scar on my heart that will surely live until the day I depart. You must be really happy. You must be enjoying your life right now, while I'm barely holding unto mines. And its only a matter of time before I end it. But when that happens, apart of me is still hoping that you'll die of guilt when you've come to realise that I've died because of you.

Because I would die for you. I'll do anything just to have you looking in my eyes as I slowly die from your damaging ways.

I should under no circumstances love you, but hell I do. I love you so much my love. I'm in love with you.

And I'm sorry it took you breaking me to do so.

I love you. The Girl You've Broken,

Kamoy...