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Visiting Therapist

So, before you guys start jumping the gun about what this is about, lemme give you a story. 

I didn't go to school today because I had an appointment at the doctor's, and I got my flu shot and some two other shots, I don't remember. But, that wasn't the main reason why I was there, but you don't need to know that shit. Anyways, when the doctor asked me what was wrong, I asked her," Mentally or Physically?" Originally that was just gonna be a joke, but I forgot, I'm with a fucking doctor, and she doesn't know me and she doesn't do jokes. Though, I guess I was half joking, but anyways, on with the story. I'm guessing that little line from me stuck with her, because after asking me what's wrong with my physical problems, she asked me about my mental state. I told her about how much negativity was floating around in my mind because of my parents not really accepting me about the whole ordeal with being trans, or even supporting me. Now, I will admit that I cried around this time because it's such a heavy topic for me to physically explain, and when I cry, I don't want to speak. But, she offered me to look for a therapist that takes my insurance and I told her yes, I would like that.

So, now that I've got the story out of the way, because it's a bit... surprising, I guess, that I'm even wanting a therapist because literally everyone whom I've known who's had a therapist say they hate it, here's why I've wanted one in the first place. 

For one, I really need one. Not only with the whole trans thing, a lot of negativity has been thrown into my mind recently, not enough to make me want to die, strangely enough, but enough for me to need help. 

Secondly, it gives me someone to help me figure out ways to move past my breast cancer gene problem that is caving into my brain and idea of getting top surgery, because that has a heavy fucking weight on me. 

Thirdly, it's just someone to talk to. I do talk to my friends about these things, but I never go into full detail and they don't really know how to help me with my problems. A therapist knows this stuff, or should know it, at least. 

That's why I have wanted one, for some time now. 
The doctor told me that she will call my parents to let them know that she's found a therapist, and she'll give them the info and everything will get set up.

Wish me luck guys. <3