My Life With Billie Joe Armstrong (discontinued)

Chapter 18: Sing from your soul not your heart

After breakfast the next day—which was more than 4 star worthy—we put everything I brought into his car and began driving to Billie's house around noon. Havoc was so frightened she wouldn't even let me hold her; she ran straight for her cat carrier. It made me so sad to keep doing this to her; it was traumatic for animals more because they adapted to scents and the habitat around them. Matt was going to have to go back for his things; my room was plenty spacious though.

When we pulled in, I gulped. I didn't even wanna face anyone, knowing Beej he called tre and mike and they brought their wives. Deciding to wait to bring things back in, we both got out and brought havoc in with us. At the door, I gulped again and he rubbed my back gently with his hand while he used his other hand to knock.

"It'll be okay; I have a good ounce with me and another pound or two in the stuff we brought from my house...maybe an extra ounce in the glove box." I smiled and the door was opened by Joey.

"Sadie! You're home!" He pulled me into a hug; we'd barely spoken much yet he was thrilled. I reluctantly hugged back, and it felt right in all honesty. More right than my moms house anyways.

"Yeah, I am.

"And this must be Matthew?" Addie stepped in with a smile and he smiled back.

"Yes ma'am. Hope I didn't cause too much trouble; I understand it was all her choices but I didn't try and stop her simply because I want her to be happy...truly, effortlessly happy." I smiled softly and we all heard someone clear their throat; everyone turned and saw billie with Jacob. Jacob was red on the face and crying like a five year old, billie looked absolutely exhausted. Puffy red eyes, his beard was growing in, he was in a t shirt and sweats.

"Are you staying?..." I knew he meant this time. I'd run off twice now, but I didn't want to stay somewhere with someone toxic, even if it was only one person out of five or ten. I should NEVER put my own self worth and comfort AFTER someone else's opinion.

"I don't have an honest answer, but I can say I'm here for longer than you think." He smirked a small smile and came over, embracing me tightly.

"Jesus, I fucking missed you."

"I was gone only a day or two?" I hugged him back with my response and he chuckled.

"Being a father I didn't get to be, it felt more like weeks." I smiled and he let me go; turning to Jacob, who was still very upset, I waved in a small manner.

"Im glad you're safe..." I smirked.

"Thanks, so am I." There was a heavy silence and Matt had begun to rub my back; I turned to him with a smile.

"Can you do me a favor and take havoc up to my room? She needs to get settled and re-relax." He nodded and took the cat carrier upstairs, remembering that she will come out on her own.

"Why didn't he let her out first?" Addie asked. I looked to them.

"Because I've moved so much in life havoc has learned that the cat carrier is a sign of a lot of movement, so I put her down with the door open and she'll come out when she feels safe." Everyone nodded and I looked around.

"You know....I almost expected tre mike and all of them here..." he laughed and Matt has returned.

"Well, to be honest after the welcome home party going bad we decided small family events until you can handle bigger things...then maybe we'll help you adapt socially in bigger things as time goes." I smiled.

Wow, they really put my anxiety into thought with me coming back this time.... I Could smell the mass amount of pot on Matt and I smiled when he walked by.