My Life With Billie Joe Armstrong (discontinued)

Chapter 5: Now youre gone, and im here...

Saddies POV:

I went to bed that night easily, because the blunt had completely kicked my ass and it was 3am by the time we went to bed at all. I woke up with billie gone, and a note on his bunk:

Saddie;
Me and the guys went downtown to dunks for coffee, we'll be back around 2:30. theres Wifi on the bus and cable, the fridge is stocked and the microwave and wicrowave oven both work.
I love you kiddo

Laying on the floor, i connected my iphone to the bluetooth in the tv and played my music on shuffle. The first song that came on was "Most Girls" by hailee steinfield. I hummed along while scrolling through my instagram. Billie had made a post about how his life was opening a new chapter....he meant me. I liked the photo and decided to comment.

I can relate to this....lol. ❤️💯

I skipped a few songs ahead and i smiled as the song One step closer by lincon lark came on. This song was practically my life with my mother. I was always just....so close to leaving. Or fighting her. Or something. She was jut so rude and she always......

My thoughts snapped back to reality when i got a notification from instagram; it was billie's post.

Don't worry kiddo we got this ✊🏻

I chuckled and realized Ryan hadn't called me before work like he usually had. Id been gone for a few days, and he hadn't contacted me at all, actually. No, I wasn't that type of girlfriend. He always called me before going to work, which was around 8:00am. It seemed odd that four days goes by and not a single message let alone phone call.

So i texted him, just to make sure everything was ok.

Hey babe. How are you? Hows havoc and jamie too lol ❤️ i miss you guys...

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An hour had gone by. Id made cheff-boiardee macaroni and cheese, and  a grilled cheese with pepperoni slices and provolone cheese, eaten it all, and listened to about half of my music. Still nothing from ryan. I brushed it off. He could've gotten called into work early, had no spare time. It happened sometimes. Besides, i could just call Jamie and talk to her.

I called Jamies phone, but she didnt answer right away either. I tried again, because she was a late sleeper, and also a heavy sleeper. When it answered though, i felt the blood drain from my fave and my heart rate picked up faster than a jaguar.

"Oh god.....jammie....fu--oh god.."  I threw my phone against the wall and felt tears pool my eyes; it couldnt be real. He wouldnt do that; they wouldn't do that. Not to me. Not behind my back. They just wouldnt....

"It...Cant be real...." I crawled into my bunk and pulled my blanket over my head; my body trembled and i tried not to believe it, not to burst into tears.  i heard the phone going off with texts every so often...but ignored it. I didn't want to talk to anyone; my mind was still processing weather what id heard was real or not.....

eventually i heard the bus doors open and someone walked in; it was two people. They were silent though, at least, at first.

"Saddie? Are you awake? Addie met us on tour so she could meet you and talk to you about how you want your room at home to be for the summer." They couldnt have picked a worse time...

I was still nearly in tears; i didnt want to talk because i feared it would be obvious. I'd thrown my phone, so i couldnt message him. Then i heard one person walk a few steps, and picked up what i assumed was my cracked to hell phone.

"Saddie?...What happened?..." I heard. foot steps again and felt his hand on my arm and i let out a small gasp of air. the first few tears slipped.