My Brother's Best Friend -VS- My Abusive Ex.

Chapter Twenty-Seven (Last Chapter)

          *A/N* This, my dear fans, is the last chapter to this tale. THERE WILL BE A SEQUEL though so please bare with me. I hope you all aren't too disappointed in this chapter but something had to be done to keep you all interested. I love all of you guys and want to thank you all that have stuck by me and the story from the beginning. I probably would have given up writing this story a while ago so THANK YOU! This chapter is dedicated to ALL of my fans on here and all of my friends that are reading. I LOVE YOU GUYS! But since I can not dedicate this to all of you I decided to dedicate it to my best friend for her 18th birthday. LOVE YOU KIM! : D

                <3 TorianneElizabeth

I had made up my mind during the week I spent in that horrid hospital and even though it was the hardest decision I’ve ever had to make I felt comfortable with my decision. I had decided with the help of my father, Eric, and Kim, who had become very close to me, that I was going to write each of them a note. I was even going to write a note to Joe, even though he didn’t really deserve it, because it was the way I was going to get closure. I had realized that for the past year all I had worried about was Joe, Aiden or Traeh and I hadn’t had my life. I had given up my friends for Joe and I had given up Joe for Aiden. The only one that hadn’t ever asked me to give up anything for him was Traeh and in all seriousness he was the one I would miss most. I know that maybe if I was already missing him so much I should choose him but I thought I was only missing his friendship. The day I got out of the hospital I started on the letters. I figured that it would be easier to just get it out of the way.

Dear Joe,

          I know you’re probably really surprised I’m writing you this letter but I needed to tell some stuff and I’m not being allowed to go see you. First, I’m okay if no one has told you or if you wanted to know. I’ve been thinking about what I should say to you and he only thing that kept coming to me was that I’m who I am right now because of you. Both of us know that what you did was wrong and we both know that I didn’t deserve it, but I also wanted to thank you. I know that sounds weird and if anyone else reads this then they will probably sign me up for therapy, but if you hadn’t done all of that I wouldn’t be as strong as I feel right now. I feel as though I can take on anyone, except love. Love is the place where I’m still not healed. After you I’m not sure what love really is and if what we had was really love then I don’t know if I want it again. You will always have a huge part of my heart with you and I hope that helps you some. You were my first boyfriend, my first kiss, my first “I love you”. You will always be a huge part of me that I won’t forget.

Remember: Once you love someone truly, you never stop.

Love you always,

          Case

Dear Aiden,

          I wasn’t brave enough to tell you this face-to-face so I’ve done the best I can. I love you. I don’t know what kind of love yet though and that’s what’s making this so hard. I’ve always trusted you whole-heartedly and never once did I doubt anything you told me but when you told me that you had lied, and not just about something tiny and not just once I felt broken. I kept asking myself how I could’ve been so stupid and naïve but the truth is that I wasn’t. I always knew something was off and that you weren’t being fully honest with me but I thought that if I was to bring it up it would ruin everything and that the bond we had formed would never be the same. I was right. Now that I know my suspicions were right I question everything you’ve ever said to me. Were you really in love with me? Did you really do all of this just to protect me? The truth is I don’t want to know the answer. I don’t want to know because I’m afraid of those answers. I’ve never been more afraid of anything except losing the two people that mean the most to me. The whole point of this was to tell you that I’ve made a decision. My decision is that I need time. I don’t know how I feel and it will probably take me a while to figure it out. I’m not expecting you to wait on me because that wouldn’t be fair but I’m asking for you to give me the time I need as long as you want to. If you don’t want to wait then move on but if you love me and want me then I need you to wait while I figure out whether I’m really in love with you or if I’m in love with my best friend. I want to be friends while you want if that’s at all possible for you to do. I know how hard it’ll be because I’ve been there and I don’t want you to go through that but this is what I need. If we still go on as normal through this I’m asking you not to talk about it. I need to work out my feelings on my own and I don’t know if I can do that if you want an answer constantly or something. If at school next Monday you come and talk to me or give me a hug I’ll know I have you as a friend but if not I’ll still give you an answer eventually. Thank you so much for everything. If you were truly protecting me you’re my hero, if not I still want to thank you for being a friend when I needed one.

I love you,

          Case

Dear Traeh,

          Yours is the last letter I have to write. I’m terrified to write this to you because I don’t want to lose you. You mean SO much to me that it’s amazing I can even write these letters on this paper. I don’t want to hurt you and I know that it might sound like I’m getting ready to give you bad news and to you it might be bad news, but it’s not the news your thinking it is so please keep reading. You, Traeh Robert Wagner are the best friend I’ve ever had. Every time I needed you, you were there no matter what it was about and I thank you for that. I need you to understand that the reason this decision is so hard for me is not because I don’t love you, because I absolutely do. I’m just not exactly sure what kind of love I feel for you. Do I love you as a friend, a brother or way more than that? I’m so confused and if you weren’t the guy in this situation with me I’d be asking you for your advice, but you are which tears me up inside because I’ve been in your seat and I had you beside me but I can’t be there for you. You are the only guy in my life that has never hurt me. You helped me realize that I’m worth something and that I can be this wonderful, beautiful person if I want to be. YOU did that for me Traeh. YOU were that guy for me and even if you didn’t realize it you helped save me. Now. My decision about this love stuff is that I need more time. I’m not asking you to wait on me because that’s not fair and I know that, but I’m asking for as much time as you’ll give me.  I’m also asking that while you wait, if you wait, that you still be my friend. What I need more than anything is my best friend there for me. If you agree to this the one catch is that we can not talk about this decision because I need to sort out my feelings on my own. If at school on Monday you come up to me as usual I’ll know your still the guy there for me and if you don’t I’ll understand and let you know when I’ve made a decision. Just don’t forget I love you okay? Because just as you told me, you’re strong and wonderful and anyone that can’t see that is crazy.

I love you always,

          Case

Those are the letters I out in envelopes and marked “Read all the way through”, before handing them to Eric to send or give to the guys. I went to bed that night praying to God that I made the right choice and that he would help me make the final choice. As I walked into school on Monday morning with Eric and Kim, I found one guy waiting for me at my locker with a smile on his face and one waiting at a distance to hand me a letter that only consisted of lyrics to the sing “Don’t Make Me” by Blake Shelton.

Dear Case,

Baby I love you

Don't want to lose you

Don't make me let you go

Took such a long time

For me to find you

Don't make me let you go

Baby I'm begging please

And I'm down here on my knees

I don't want to have to set you free

Don't make me

I’ll wait from here my love because it will be too hard to wait from there.

Aiden.

THE END.......... FOR NOW :)

The sequel will be called "The Final Decision: Traeh -VS- Aiden" and it probably won't be up for a little while with school starting back and work but it will be up eventually so hang in there with me.