Cold Hearted Part 2

Chapter 13 : What Am I Doing

*(Chris P.O.V.)*

Lately I've been noticing my temper towards Nia, Or just in general..I don't mean too but The way things has been lately is stressing me the fuck out. I got up from underneath Nia being sure not to wake her up and walked to the bathroom. I pissed, washed my hands, Then washed my face, And brushed my teeth. I walked downstairs and saw Lexus down there Drinking.

"What the hell it's 7 in the morning why you drinking?" I asked sitting next to him.

"Shariah just told me last night that she might be pregnant." Lexus said taking another shot.

"Damn..Why you go in raw?" I asked laughing. He glared at me then flicked me off.

"I'm just saying.." I said putting my hands up.

"I always go in raw and she's always on the pill, I guess that night she just slipped up or sum shit." He said shrugging.

"So what you finna do?" I asked getting a apple out the fridge.

"I have to step up for the fam, I mean what else can I do. " He paused.

"It's not that I don't want the child, I mean a nigga isn't even out of high school yet. I'm not mentally or physically prepared for no baby" He continued. 

"You talk to her about it?" I asked.

"I did and offered the option of possibly getting an abortion or give it up for adoption." He said rubbing his face. I choked on my apple and looked at him wide eyed.

"What?" He asked furrowing his eyebrows.

"Did you really ask her that?" I asked hitting him in the back of the head.

"Aye Man, I didnt know what else to say..I was confused as fuck and that was the first thing that popped in my head." He said shrugging. Rule number one: If your girl ever get pregnant, Never ever ever EVER ask her to get an abortion!

"You dumb ass." I snickered.

"What she do to you last night?" I asked laughing.

"She called me a low life Nigga and kicked me out of the room and told me to sleep on the couch." He said shaking his head.I was on the floor crying. I swear he can be so dumb sometimes.

"Damn man, Well the only thing I can tell you at this moment is to go up their and take what ever she throws at you, I mean if it turns out she is pregnant you need to take matters into your own hand and be a responsible father for her and your child." I said rubbing his back. He gave me one of those "brotherly" Hugs and nodded.

"Yeah, You right...Well let me go upstairs to check on her. Ill talk to you later." He said Tieing his dreads in a pony tale then dapping me up. I nodded and walked upstairs with him and walked into My room. Nia was still sleep in the same position I left her. I feel so bad for her sometimes,I mean she get dragged into shit that ain't got nothing to do with her because of me and my gang. I feel as if she can do so much better than me. You know with one of those Lawyer type of niggas. The ones with a rich and proper family. I sat next to her and put my hand threw her long curly hair. I sighed.

I want to leave her so she can do better with her life but I know if I see her with some other Nigga I'm going to get jealous and bring her back to me. I want to get better for her but I just keep making the same mistakes over and over again. Like with the crack, I never actually stopped. I just haven't been doing it as much as I use to. I know I made a promise to her but I cant keep up with it. She started squirming around in her sleep and I knew she was going to wake up soon. I kissed her forehead lightly and her eyes fluttered open. She smiled