Cold Hearted Part 2

Chapter 20: Cheaters

*(Chris P.O.V.)*

FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK!

Was all I was thinking I have never in my life put my hands on a female, I never intended to hurt her but she keep slapping me and grabbing me up that shit was pissing me off. I was beyond embarrassed and felt shameful of myself.. My father probably looking down on me feeling disappointed with me. I have to come clean to her I have to make things right...I cant keep hurting her like this. It kills me to see her broken down like this and I cant keep doing this to her. I wont keep doing this to her.

I walked downstairs seeing Nia in the kitchen cooking what smells like Gumbo and I came up behind her and hugged from the back.

"Get off me Chris." She  sniffled. I moved her hair from the side of her face and kissed down her neck.

"I love you." I repeated between every kiss.

"Please. Please get off me." I saw a tear roll down her cheek and I felt terrible.

"Nia, I didn't mean to hurt you. I was pissed and You kept grabbing me I couldn't contain myself." I spoke truthfully. I watched as she turned the fire on low and unwrap my arms from around her and walk away from me.

"Nia, stop acting this way I said I was sorry what more do you want from me?"

"I just want you to be honest with me.. please I cant keep living in a house with a fucking liar,And a potential abuser, You need help We need space. I saw your true colors today and I'm nervous around you. I should never be nervous around my boyfriend." She whipped the tears from her face and looked to the ground.

"I cant do this with you anymore Chris...I don't mean a little break.. Or we can still friends type shit. I cant do any of this anymore. I don't trust you, I cant trust you.. Like you said before what's a relationship without trust?" Nia was breaking down at this point and my chest was burning at the thought of her leaving me. I embraced her in a hug and let her cry on my chest. I'm not gone lie My eyes were watering up too, Especially for what I'm about to tell her next.

"We need to talk." I spoke nervously. She pulled away from my arms. And sat at the couch in the family room I sat in front of her trying to figure out what to say next.

"I Love you Nia. I mean I really love you and I hate to see you so broken and hurt because of me , I keep promising you that I would never hurt you but All I have done in this relation ship is hurt you.. I have to be honest with you and I know what I'm going to say is going to kill you more then ever and I cant stress enough how sorry I am." My heart was racing and my palms were sweating. She just stared at me hanging on my every word.

"What is it?" She asked shaking her leg.

"I love you Nia.." I said again taking a deep breath.

"Chris your scaring me what Is it?"

"I....... I cheated on you." I said slowly. I saw her eyes turn dark and her face drained from all emotion that was left. She didn't even say anything she got up and went upstairs. I leaned back on the couch taking a second to soak everything in before going upstairs behind her.

I sat on the bed watching her grab suitcases out of the closet and proceed to pack any and everything of hers inside of the bags. She was crying hard and I didn't know rather to comfort her or watch.

"Nia.." I said softly.

"WHAT? what do you want Chris? what more do you have to say? You promised me you would never hurt me.. You promised Chris! Why do you do this to me.. Was I not doing something right? was I not good enough? " She asked with tears running down her face.