I knew along time ago that men have codes. That generally, a lifestyle meant you had to believe and have a faith in something. Usually its family. Sometimes even expanded to community. But ultimately you believed in something that makes you better- and gives you a motivation and spiritually goal and attachment and meaning to everyday life... When I was with "her", I had love to fuel that certain development that was needed to see this. That I needed a code. The love didn't last long enough to give me what I needed to have a better foundation. But, as of today, this month, I started redefining that. Especially in light of my relationship with my best friends cousin no less. It's been 8 months since. The air was cleared. But regret is still here. And rightfully so.
I once made a code several years ago. After I broke up with "her". It kept me out of a fair amount of- what would've been- bad relationships. After losing my goals and hopes and ambitions for a career, I lost said goals and paper of them. I suppose after everything its been long enough... And I need to redefine what my life means to- well, me.
{The actual song doesn't mean anything to what I've said, maybe a little, but the main chorus is counter-intuitive to what I'm talking about here. If anything, said code/rules/lifestyle will make it easier for people to understand why I'm here tonight (alive and functioning as a human being)}
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Compass (2018)
Random"Fate, is nothing other than the allowance, and passing, of your present circumstantial reality to dictate all potential future outcomes." - Me, myself and I.
