Purple Tips (My New Escape)

Twenty

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Sometimes....sometimes I like to think to myself on ways I could've changed this. A way I could get rid of any pain I caused and mistakes I've repeated.

I continue to walk through the blazing desert.

Let's continue. Starting trouble when I ran away; that just made my lifetime jail time higher. Its stupid to do that. I had rage and I felt like being rebelious because I was free? I can't just do that.

Killing my dad is complicated. Yes, it was in self defense but I didn't want to kill him. I just wanted him out of the house stuck in jail. I could've shot at his leg; make him unable to walk and then call the police. But if I were to stay I would've been in jail. But I ran away and 'changed' my name and my hair.

Meeting Lane. Yes, I said Lane. I feel like Lane and Lush are two different people. Yes, they both have problems but some are different. Lush is so reckless. Lane was so shy but fun and outgoing. She just didn't have any friends.

I do love both. I feel like I'm in love with both. She is really the only reason I still do this. To make her happy. But if she wasn't here I would....

"YO OMY! THIS BABY IS FIXED!"

I look behind me and I smile to see Lush. The car was fixed and ready to go.

"Hey, Lush." I give her a warm smile.

"Get your Butt in here!" She yelled.

I happily get in.

"You've been gone for hours. I literally had to drive six miles to come get you."

Six miles.

"That's my workout for today" or my last one.

"Heh heh. Yeah. What were you doing? Its so hot!"

"I was just thinking." I look out of the window.

I checked the GPS again and we were two hours away from the city. We made it.

"Hey Lush?"

She turns to me. "Yeah?"

"Can we drop the criminal stuff?"

She turns back to the road. "Sure. I can live with that"

The car ride was really chill. I was slowly falling asleep as the sun was going down. Happy was playing. I made me feel calm and at peace. The slow tempo and chimes were...perfect.

Couldn't relax
Couldn't set back
And let the sun-
Light in my lap

Lush touched my leg. "Hey, look!" I open my eyes slowly and look outside. The tall buildings and car lights surrounded me. The brightnes of the city forced me to squint my eyes. It was night so the town was alive.

Not for me

"I'd say let's get a hotel and rule the city tonight?" She says wide awake.

I frown and look down.

I dont get it.

I'm supposed to be happy and energized for this. I feel empty and depressed honestly. This was my dream. This was my hope. And I don't see it.

I turn over to see Lush gazing at the outside seeming so happy. It didn't make me happy to see her happy. I feel selfish. But I don't want this.

She pulls into a parking garage and we get out. I'm walking around the town tired trying to keep up with her. She was skipping around the sidewalk and I was just walking fast with my hands in my pockets.

She holds my hands and spin me around. When she lets go I catch my balance and look at her. She looks fine.

I continue to walk with her and push through. We finally get to the hotel and I sit on the window sill in the room.

She flops her stuff on the bed and sighs as she also flops onto the bed. "Ah...so! I say we run around, steal some champagne, and act a fool?"

I turn my head to glare at her. I said no stealing. I get up and rush out of the room.

"Hey wait-. Omy?"

I walk up to the roof and try to act normal in front of the other people. Smileing and waving at me as I pass them, I just looked down.

I finally get to the top and sit down. I pull out my phone and put it on notes.

Lush, I quit.
This was the worst mistake.
I will always love you.
You were so much fun to be with but I'm afraid I have to go now. Please stay happy without me. Take all of the money and put it to good use.
-Isabella.

I set the phone down and put the wallet next to it.

I walk over to the edge of the roof and stand on it. I just stay there for a bit looking down at the cars rushing through. I took in the city I just arrived at for the last time and hold my breath.

I look back to see if someone will save me.

No sign of people
No sign of help
No Lush

A tear goes down my cheek. I feel so empty and sad.

My face has no expression and I felt dead.

I turn back to look down from the thirty story high building. I look back one more time and still no Lush.

I put one foot in front of the other and I feel the air comming out of me.
Instant regret

It was just for a quick second though.

I felt hands holding onto my arm. I look up to see my partner with tears streaming down her eyes.

I look back down at the traffic and scream out of fear. I was squirming and freaking out.

"Help me up! Please! Help! Save me!"

"Stop moving you idiot! I'm losing grip!"