Outcast (a lashton fanfiction)

Chapter 6

* 3 Month time skip, monday lorming, sorry for the skipping but it helps the story so just go with it.*

Lukes p.o.v.

I pulled on an oversized gray hoodie, it used to fit a couple weeks ago, i pulled on a pair of skinny jeans. I slipped on my vans and my new glasses before walking down the stairs.

"Luke I made breakfast, sit down." My mom says while setting the food infront of my brother and dad.

"Uh i have to go to school early, no time to eat." I stuttered and grabbed my bag running out the door before she could protest. I've only been eating small snacks here and there since that day in the lunch room.

I walked down the sidewalk. Today is testing in gym and I know i'm gonna be yelled at for not being good enough, tell me something i dont know. I stopped denying everything the kids at school, they're right. I'm worthless, retarded, fat, ugly, fag. Everything they say.

Ashton stopped talking to me for good this time, i actualy thought that day at the clearing meant we could at least talk outside of school but he stopped all together. Marcus started being distant and slowly stopped talking to me too. I guess i'm just so annoying and worthless that they don't wanna talk to me. I'm such an outcast.

I walked up the steps and kept my head down, evoiding eye contact. Maybe I can make it to gym before getting pummled.

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I was wrong. I got hit once before 3rd gym.

"Hemmings! Move!" my coach yelled at me.

"Lighten up coach he can't help he's a good for nothing weakling." Jake shrugged. Yup thats another thing i am. A good for nothing weakling. Yup.

"Thats enough from you roberts." The coach yelled back. "Line up at the net!" They all jogged over to the net. I took my hoodie off tossing it on the bench. I took my place next someone and waited for instructions. I wiped some sweat off my brow, its pretty warm out.

"You're gonna run aross the field and back. Go!" He yelled at us. I took off with the other kids. I get half way down the field, before I can't hold my weight anymore, I fall and close my eyes to excape the spinning.

"Hemmings! Are you okay?" Coach leans over me. I try to talk but cough instead.

"Luke!" I hear Ashton yell before someone sits beside me. "Are you okay?"

"Irwin help him to the nurse, Hood you help." I hear Calum groan before helping Ashton carry me to the nurse.

"What happen?" She ushers them in and they lay me on the table.

"He collapsed on the field." Ashton says sitting next to me in a chair.

The nurse helps me, don't ask me what she did because I couldn't tell you considering i couldn't keep awake.

"How are you feeling Luke?" Ashton asked worried. Calum looking at us from the other side of the room.

"Fine." I mumble and try to sit up before falling back down.

"Don't sit up." Calum scoffs.

"Thanks for the tip." I snap. He holds his hands up in surrender before leaving. "How come you didn't talk to me for 3 months?"

"The boys started to think i was talking to you. I couldn't have them bullying me or kicking me off the team!" He says. God, does he only care about himself! I sit up and manage to not get dizzy.

"Leave." I say.

"What?" He asks stunned.

"I said leave, you only care about yourself." It hurts to say it but i have too.

"What do you mean i only care about myself?" He asks.

"You don't care how I feel, just if you're gonna get bullied, what about me? Or the other kids who get bullied? The reason I fainted is I've hardly eaten in 3 months. I get bullied non stop and you don't even think how abandoning me would affect me." I say.

"You haven't eaten in 3 months?"  Ashton says shocked.

"Yeah." I say. "I have bruises all over too."

"God Luke! You need to eat!" He says and I think for once he's worried about me but he turns it around to him. "See if i came out this would happen to me!"

"Leave."  I say. "Just leave."

"Fine." He gets up and starts to walk away. I look at my lap tearing up.

"And to think I like you." I mumbled to myself. He didnt seem to hear me. The nurse walks in after he leaves.

"Well, Luke i'm gonna send you home for the day. Make sure you drink a lot and get some rest. I don't want to see you here tomorrow." She said. "I'm calling your mom and telling her to keep you home, you need the rest."  I nod.

It wasn't long before my mom was picking me up from the front office.

"Luke what happen? are you okay? Where you beat up again? Are you-" I cut off her panicing.

"I'm fine mum, just the heat got to me." I shrugged out of her arms. "Can we just go home i wanna sleep."

"Yeah hun lets get you home." She started leading me to the car, i rolled my eyes but let her pull me along to the car.

Once we get home she goes full mother mode.

"Up to bed. Go. I'm going to get you water and food, no agruing. Lucus Robert Hemmings you are not going outside." I sighed in defeat and went up to my room. I changed into an over sized jumper and pajama pants before getting into bed. I grabbed my laptop from under my bed and decided to have a netflix marathon

"DOOOOO WEEEE OOOOO." My laptop blares (guess the show ;)) as my mom brings up a tray of soup. As soon as she leaves I carry the bowl into my bath room and dump the soup in the toilet. I flush it and set the bowl back on the try to make it seem like I ate it. I walk back into the bathroom, roll up my sleeves, and pull out my blade. I look over the lines on my wrist, pink, white, and the newer ones a dark red. I press the blade onto my wrist and add more lines. One for being worthless, one for being a fag, one for being alive, one for lying to my parents. The list goes on. I wash the blood off my arm and hide the blade away in the cabnet again. I bandage up my arm and pull my sleeves down to hide the fresh marks before climbing into bed.

Ashtons p.o.v.

Luke likes me? Like, has a crush on me? Really? Maybe I heard wrong. Yeah thats it.

"Mom i'm home!" I walk inside.

"Go upstairs and clean that mess you call a room." She yells back. I groan but run upstairs to do as told. I just can't shake the thought that i didn't hear wrong and my best mate likes me. The part that scares me most is, it makes my tummy turn, in a good way, when i think about it.

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So. I didnt update for a while. I re-wrote this chapter 3 times and each time I hated it. I finally settled on this one and i'm not even fully happy with it so if i sucks, i know.