Cliche Love // OhmToonz

The Talk

I woke up, finally Saturday, but as soon as I woke up I felt like crying, I felt bad for Luke, I felt bad for trying to get revenge everything he's sad about is my fault, I had to talk to him about this.

I shot him a text

Ryan- Luke, I know it might be hard for us to talk to each other but I think we both need to clear some shit up, just text me back when you wanna talk... <3

I deleted the heart before sending it... I can't send him a heart during a tough time like this, what was I trying to do!? he didn't reply so I threw my phone across the room in anger, then I started crying.

"Ryan? are you alright dear? why are you crying?"

"WHY IS LOVE SO COMPLICATED!?"

"Oh, Ryan can I come in?"

"sure mom"

my mom walked in and closed the door behind her and sat at the end of my bed, I was rolled up in my blanket crying, stupid heart, why do you have to love people?

"sweetie, what's the problem with love?"

"the person I like doesn't like me and it hurts"

"who's this person?"

"Luke..."

she looked shocked I said a guy's name, then she just smiled and hugged me a little

"it's not always gonna work out like a movie Ryan, love isn't perfect, in fact love is more like torture than something wonderful, but if he doesn't like you back then he's just missing out on someone amazing, now stop crying please? your making me feel like a bad mother"

I hugged her tightly and nodded

"thanks mom"

"I have to go shopping for a new couch but I'll be back soon, make yourself something to eat, if you're going out leave a note"

she kissed my forehead and left.

I wiped my eyes, stood up and grabbed my phone to text Jon but I saw I had an un-read message.

Luke- that'd be nice

I rubbed my eyes thinking I was seeing this wrong, but it was still there, so he did want to talk...

Ryan- wanna come over right now? I'm home alone and I think it's a perfect time to talk

Luke- be over soon

I turned off my phone and traced the new little crack in my screen, it was perfect but I ruined it with my stupidity. 

I cleaned my room up a little and threw the tear stained blanket into the washing machine and sat in my tidy room awaiting a knock, a door bell ring or a text from Luke letting me know he's here. I'm gonna be honest I am shaking I am so nervous right now, we both made some mistakes but I know everything will be fine... well I don't know that everything will be fine, I just hope it will.

I hear a faint knock on my door, I check outside my window to see Luke's car parked I run downstairs and open the door, I face Luke... I swallow my own saliva because I'm so nervous.

"Hi..."

"Hi, we'll be talking in my room... if that's okay..."

"no no that's fine!"

IT IS SO AWKWARD!

I never knew talking to someone you love so dearly could be this painful, he followed me to my room, we sat on my bed.

"I wanna say sorry first"

Luke nodded

"I didn't mean to make you jealous, David convinced me it was a good idea, it was only suppose to be his jacket, but when he kissed me, he thought I was the guy he's crushing on so he kept going until you broke him out of his trance"

"I'm sorry for making you leave, I should of chased you or something, I should of told you about it first, Instead I was going to wait"

"told me what?"

"I'm bi"

"bi?"

"yea"

"really?"

"that's why I said I wasn't a full 100 percent on kissing you, that's why I said my favourite colours were pink purple and blue, the Bi flag..."

"you're joking..."

"I'm not Ryan,  I just didn't know how to tell you when the only person I really told was Jon..."

"I'm sorry about all this shit we've gone through, it's my fault, don't try to tell me it isn't Luke because it is!"

"Ryan-"

he shifted closer to me on my bed, I didn't mind I felt like crying my guts out. I felt so bad, it was like I was infected by a terrible guilty disease

"No, please. let me feel guilty"

"RYAN!"

my eyes widen at the sudden raise of his voice and how it boomed throughout my room. I turned my head around to stare into his teary eyes

"I- I can't fucking lose someone like you Ryan"

I wiped my eyes a little and continue to look him in the eyes.

"I don't wanna lose someone like you Luke"

he smiled a little

he inched closer

"can we try this again?"

"be my guest"