Forbidden

I'm Sorry

There were hundreds of racks of clothes, to get through them all would to centuries! I decided to settle on three particular dress that I liked. The first one was flowy and elegant, it was a relaxing teal-ish gray color and felt like silk. The second one was pastel pink, short, and ruffled. Lastly there was a white jumpsuit it felt like a cloud and looked beautiful. I couldn't decide so I had the guys choose for me. They all agreed that the jumpsuit with black heels looked the best on me so it was decided. We payed, and left.

 I had dressed into the clothing before we left and felt amazing, but the heels were extremely bothersome. 

"Now you match us!" Jungkook cutely sang, calming any stress I ever had.

"Chop, chop, everyone, our reservation is in half an hour. So move your butts, and load in!"

"Okay mom."

"Jeez..."

We all mumbled, and groaned. I hopped into the car, this time sitting next to Yoongi. Jin started to drive away as Taehyung was closing the door. Causing him to lose his balance.

"Somebody's stressed out..." Yoongi whispered to me, seemingly annoyed.

"Are you okay Jin? This is just a restaurant we're going to. You can calm down." 

:::

The waitress called our name and we made our way over to the circular table. I noticed that some of the guys were bickering and I clouds't tell why. So I went over to ask.

"No, I want to!"

"Who made you in charge?"

"Why don't you ask her then?"

Before I could get any words out Hoseok interrupted me

"Excuse me, but who would you rather sit by at of all of us?"

"Are you kidding me? That's what you're arguing about?"

Who knew they were fighting over me. I'm not worth anything. Let alone to be fought over. 

"I don't know, I guess Namjoon and Taehyung. I haven't gotten to really talk to them yet."

Jin glared at me, probably for not choosing him. I was just being fair.

"Ahhemm!" The waitress looked a little pissed so they reluctantly took their seat, and pulled a menu from her hand.

We ordered, and sat in silence until my brother started a conversation.

"So JaeHee, I know you already answered my question, but any more details from college?"

I scraped my mind for a list of appropriate things to say, but how are you supposed to tell your brother your life was slowly falling apart. 

"Well... there was this girl named YoungLee. She hated me, and I mean with a passion, ever since high school. She would always try and spread false rumors about me, and no one really cared until a unique one circulated. "

Everyone focused on my words like their life depended on it. It was strange to feel so cared for, because even though mom and dad loved me, they were always enveloped in their work. Leaving me to suffer from anxiety and depression. But I never thought anyone cared about my problems, and had their own to deal with instead. 

"She said that I had only made my way into that college by sleeping around, and the only way I got good grades in my courses was from seduction. people believed her so much that I lost some, what I thought, were good friends. But obviously I was wrong about them. So I tried my best to ignore them, and focus on my studies, but it just dug deeper, and deeper into my skin until it truly hurt me..."

Looking around I realized how I just ruined this whole situation. This was supposed to be happy and fun, and I ruined it with my problems, this kind of hurt me. Once again I messed everything up. But I tried to hide it by covering it with a light chuckle.

"It's ok you guys, it's done now. Don't worry about me. How are you doing?"

"I'm glad you told us." Jimin comforted me, and laid his hand onto my arm giving me goosebumps.

"It's ok. Really, let's just forget I told you an-"

I got cut off by loads of food entering the table. That solves one problem.

We continued through dinner not mentioning anything more than what I previously said, and kept the mood light and happy.

All of the food was delicious, and ended up getting an amazing chocolate dessert. We paid the bill and left. Outside the brisk night air hit me. Jin noticed my shivering and offered me his jacket, causing the ripple effect. Making all the other guys do the same.

I accepted his, and walked ahead of the group. Thinking to myself  "This is strange, it almost feels like a date: The shopping, the dinner, and the jacket offering. Could they maybe...like me? More than as a friend. Ha, that's impossible. Who am I kidding, I must be watching too many K-dramas."

 I shook the thoughts from my head and walked right into something causing my head to lunge forward and hardcore hit a large metal object. It stung when I touched it, trying to hide it. I heard a few giggles in the back and slaps following it. I look up and come to realization that I had just ran into our own car. I felt so stupid.

:::

On the drive home I stayed mostly silently, while the guys chatted and laughed along the way. 

I couldn't hold my thoughts in anymore and had to apologize "I'm sorry you guys. I didn't mean to ruin tonight. I hope I didn't trash the whole night. We had to go out and look for a dress for me, which almost made us late, I made a fun event sad, and I-"

"I'm sorry you feel that way but we don't think you ruined anything. We're glad you tagged along." Jimin rubbed his hand against my arm, for the second time, trying to comfort me.

"Well somebody's on their period." Jin mumbled under his breath.

The sound of a full smack later followed again.

---

ooh! Double update!

 let's go Boiii!

*unedited*