The Nightmare Outside My Window

T H I R T Y - O N E

{ Harlow }

{ Five months pregnant}

"What is it?"Michael ask while rubbing my growing stomach. I laid in bed with red puffing eyes. Yes I'm crying cause I wanted a girl instead of a damn boy. I don't want my son to be like Michael. I know Michael have some bad ways, I can see it through him. Jenny talks about him and my mother. Something ain't right with him. But, I love him.

"It's a boy"I said lowly. Thank God he heard me cause I wasn't gone say it again.

Michael whole face lit up when he heard boy. He rubbed my stomach then kissed it smiling down. I want to know, why he don't act like this with his other son. Samantha and his son. "Hey little man, Daddy loves you so much and can't wait to see you. Mommy is gone take good care of you and daddy will buy you all the lastest Jordans, Nike, Adidas, Yeezys, and Vans...."

"And where you gone put all that at?"I ask.

"Our house"he said.

"Yeah, I bought a nice house for the both of us. Raise Jr there, have some family dinners there......"

"Michael, you haven't even discuss this with me!"I semi yelled rising up from the pillow.

"I'm sorry baby, I should of discuss this first with you and Jr then moved y'all in"Michael said.

"Who the fuck is Jr?"I ask.

"Our baby boy name"Michael chuckle. "Michael B Jordan Jr"

"I'm sorry babe but that's not gone be his name"I said.

Michael mood went from 100% to 5%. "What you mean that's not gone be his name? He's my son so whatever the fuck I name him! That's his name!!"he yelled making me jump.

I hop up from the bed walking to the bathroom so I can take a bath. I needed to relax. I don't want to start crying in front Michael cause it....... All of sudden, I started crying. See, this is why I don't like my hormones.  Next thing I know, I want to fight.

"What the fuck you crying for?"Michael ask.

"Fuck you Michael!! Get your ugly rat ass out my apartment and don't come back till I say for you to come back!!!"I yelled. I just wanted to punch his face into the wall.

"Alright, that's fine with me. I don't have to deal with your emotional ass"he grab his jacket and was bout to walk out the room.

"Wait, baby please come back"I whined. "Don't leave me"

A smirk on his face made my mood change again. "Something wrong with you"

"It's this baby"I said walking inside the bathroom. I turn the water on and watch as the tub filled up with hot water. "I was thinking"

"Thinking about what?"he looked at me from the bathroom mirror.

"What if we have a baby shower?"I ask. "Invite the girls from the hospital so I can make them jealous. Your family, my family"

"My family don't even know anything about you yet"he said.

"Why you never let me meet your mom and dad?"I ask.

"Cause I don't have a mom and dad"he said.

"What happened to them?"I ask.

"They drop me off at the foster care and never return to get me. I cried for days and still cry today to see them"he sniffle. I walk up to Michael hugging his waist. "I just want to see them again"he cried.

I didn't know what to say. I felt bad. I only have one parent in my life right now. My father have his ways. He comes when he wants to. So when this baby shower happens, he better come.