Short Heartbreaking Stories

Memories

Author's note
Sorry this one isn't that sad it's more of a idea or thought I had earlier today.
That's all our memories Good and Bad come back. I started to realize how I started to fall in love with you. I remember the times we talked for hours on it, the days you got me out of my comfort zone when we cuddled and held hands. To when we fought and argued, or me going too far with my jokes to the point you ended it all. It hurt it still does but now I am confused with do I still have feelings for you or do I only like you as a friend. And all the memories of before break up that led to me taking a razor to my skin and cutting. The day before we started dating I grab the bottle of pills the next thing I knew our memories of the time you said you had a crush on me to the part when you smile the way you did. I knew I had to have you. Today we just talked to the point where I walk on a Slimline try not to ruin things like I did the last time that led to the point of us breaking up. the line is Getting Thinner because I can't help but smile and I can message from you that leads to me giving you advice over who you're with. But then they can pay him I'm calling you is not what I want to say what I really want to say is I want you but you know why I can't. Because the one day I asked you do you still have feelings for me you said I only like you as a friend in a relationship way I don't know that it hurt but then I realized maybe I Can't Make You Love Me. There are ways that we can just watch from the sidelines while you move on. I can sit there and smile laugh and fake. But there are days where I just want to say I'm sorry but I want you still I'm sorry I can get rid of these I tried and I tried but it's not working I'm sorry. These memories give me hope and maybe one day I can remind someone or you maybe but I know exactly how to treat people when I love them. But I can't help was trying to stay away because I don't want to be hurt I don't want it to happen to the point where it ends up like the last one. But I guess that's going to happen because that's what happened to us I grew distant I grew cold I started to ignore you to the point I got jealous sleeping with your friend. I didn't mean to get jealous but I made you jealous by getting close to my friend I didn't know what I was doing I didn't know I was hurting you in the process. Those times where we came up with nicknames for each other to wear your name in my phone was baby girl. I can admit this but maybe I don't want to maybe because I know that you need me might see this one day I'm not stupid as everyone thinks I am but I know when I like someone I can try to deny it but it won't work. Even our friends noticed before I do. But it's good to see that you are happy to me ruining it all again because I told you the truth bite until you the full truth. I keep asking you what's going to happen I know he's going to blame me. Already have enough blaming myself I'm blaming myself for losing you. There is no way I can get to back not even me saying this would but maybe I can try and get better maybe I can think of all the stuff I did and made a mistake of in our relationship to impact my future so I can try and get better so my next relationship won't be the one that just gets destroyed by me. I hope by then I've grew it out of whatever is going on with me. Maybe when you see this you won't ask me a question maybe you won't think this is a good one it's probably not a good one because this is the only way I can tell you without deleting it but I am sorry I can't help it I tried. I still love you but not in a friend way.