~This is for a person that made me so happy but knowing me, I messed it up. So this is for you. plz don't hate me~
She reaches out for my hand but I pull away. I didn't want her to know my secrets, everything that eats me up at 3 a.m. I kinda expected her to break up with me. I really loved her to the point it actually hurts, but I'm not perfect for her. The way she held me like I was made of glass. I don't even know why she liked me, I don't even know why she said yes. did she say yes cause she liked me or did she feel guilty about the last time, she broke up with me? she removed me, so I can't even apologize. there is like a pain in my chest, like its being shattered again over and over again. I asked her to take me back cause it was a petty fight. I really loved her to the point I don't even know if I can look at her. I can't even touch her the same way.
It has been maybe 16 days and I'm still thinking of how I fucked up. I want to fix it, I don't want to say she's my ex or my friend. I want her as my girlfriend. I want to fix it, I want to hold her in my arms and kiss her cute face, see her smile and smile, not cry. I don't know how to get her back, my head hurts from all the crying. I cry as soon as all the lights go out. the video in my head plays her laugh, her smile, her beautiful eyes, her cute face, the way she held my hands, hugged me, and the way she told me she loved me. I want it back, I want her back. well, I'm going to try and get some sleep tonight. I'm going to bed knowing that my dumbass mess up, I want to fix it, I would do anything.
~This was written back in (1)January and (2) February. I still want her back but I'm okay being her friend even though it will hurt when she moves on.~
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Short Heartbreaking Stories
Short StoryRead at your own risk. These stories are not real but are true feelings I have so I made them stories. Some maybe depressing, sad, and the truth.
