eccedentesiast//l.h

17

"shes gone ash. shes gone."

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i ran out of ashtons house crying, and he followed.

driving back home, i see ashtons car behind me, which isnt good.

when im home, i lock the front door so ashton cant get in.

i pull out a notebook and start to write.

dear everyone,

im sorry. i was such a failure that i couldnt even save my best friend.

dear sav,

i will always love you. always have, always will. i feel that this is selfish. but i love you enough. when i said id die for you i was serious.

dear ash,

thanks for being my best mate. you were always there for me to make me happy. but im afraid that this time i couldn't be cured.

dear michael,

i hated you for most of our school years, but you were pretty rad.

dear calum,

i didnt know you well but you played bass well, continue the band without me.

dear mum,

i love you. im sorry. thats all

dear ben and jack,

same for you. i love you and im sorry for being such a nuisance.

i got my sleeping pills, and took them all.

goodbye.