Weakness

26. "But I don't want to..."

JUSTIN

My mind is going crazy. I don't know what to think or feel about this.

I want to have sex with Amelia... So bad, but I know that it would be so wrong if I did.

She's drunk and she's not thinking clearly because I'm 100% sure that if she was sober right now, she wouldn't be doing this. She'd probably be trying not to even kiss me but of course she would have given in to temptation but now this has gone too far.

I'm not going to lie, I'm sexually frustrated and with her throwing herself at me, I can't help but actually want to go along with this.

She's currently on top of me, doing everything in her power to make me agree to this. She's hot as hell but I'm the one that's supposed to have control here so I do what comes to mind which is to flip us over so that I'm now laying on top of her with my arms by the side of her face to hold my weight.

I see a small smile creep on her lips. She thinks that I'm going to go along with this but I'm not. I can't...

I'll give her a little tease but that's the best that I can do. I'll gladly have sex with her when she's sober but now isn't the right time.

I start by gently kissing her neck. She moves her head to the side to give me more access and I gladly swipe my tongue on her soft skin.

As my mouth works on her neck, my hands move down to squeeze her ass. She jumps upward from the sudden reason, which causes our bodies to move against one another causing a friction.

My mouth starts to suck on the skin of her neck, I suck, kiss, and even gently bite on the skin as I hear her let out soft but pleasurable moans. A small smile escapes from my lips from the sudden impact that I have on her as I move my head away and face her.

"Let's go to bed." I tell her. I hope she'll let this go and agree because I don't think I can contain myself for much longer.

"But I don't want to..." She pouts. Damn how much has she drank?

"C'mon, you have to. You can sleep with me tonight."

"Okay fine but only because I'm a bit tired." She responds.

We both get ready for bed, I have no clue how she can get herself dressed and ready but she did it. She may have stumbled around and she may have fallen but she managed to do everything well. I pull up the covers of my bed and get in on my side and then I feel the other side of the bed shift indicating that she got in the bed as well.

"Goodnight Amelia." I say.

"Night Justin." She replies.

I turn around so that my back is facing hers and close my eyes so that I can finally fall asleep.

I want to ignore the fact that I have a girl in my bed but I can't. I've had sex with plenty of girls before but that's all that has happened. I haven't slept with anyone in the same bed since I was a child and that was only because I had a nightmare and my mom slept with me only that one time and to my defense, I was five.

I let out a sigh because I just can't stop thinking now. How did Amelia get under my skin so quickly? I have been thinking about how much I don't like her and I haven't even thought of the fact that I may actually feel something for her after all...

I mean this all can't be nothing, right?

"We're not going to cuddle?" She removes me away from my thoughts and I'm sort of glad.

"Yes baby." I surprise myself by responding. I never cuddle, ever. But I find myself turn around so that I'm facing her and I wrap my arms around her waist, pulling her towards me as I do so. She reacts by placing her head on my chest and her arms loosely around me while her legs tangle with my own.

"That's better." She admits and I then start to rub my hands on her back in a soothing way.

"Mhm..." I mumble. She's going to drive me insane. I never thought I would ever feel this way...

After a few minutes pass by, I can tell by the change in her breathing and body that she's asleep. I'm left thinking for a few more minutes because I just can't sleep when there's a lot on my mind.

I've been trying to push this out of my mind since day one and it seems as the days go by, it keeps coming up more and more. It seems as if one of these days I won't be able to push it away for much longer because it's there. I know it is and as much as i'd like to pretend that nothing is going on, I just can't do that.

I need to figure this all out soon.

I softly sigh again and I find myself kissing the top of her head which once again surprises me but I decide not to think much about it. After a couple of minutes, I as well, drift off into a peaceful sleep.

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A/N- I haven't updated in 3 weeks- about to be 4!! Wow I'm sorry for the lack of updates.

I haven't updated lately because I was stuck on this chapter but now I'm back!

Oh and if you guys have the chance can you check out my other Justin Fanfiction called "Toxic Love" :)

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