Nick (This like some weeks skip)
"F-Fuck Taymor!" I moaned out
I heard him suck his teeth and slide out of me.
"Once again you calling me this nigga name" Dimitri said grabbing his clothes off the floor
Dammit. I got off of all fours and walked over to him.
"I'm sorry baby it was an accident" I said grabbing his arm
He yanked away from me.
"Nah fuck that. I understand y'all past issues or whatever but he gotta still be fucking you for you to yell out his name every time I'm fucking you" he said sliding on his pants
"He's not I swear. Your the only person I'm fucking" I partially lied
I only had sex with Taymor once this whole time me and Dimitri been fucking around. It happened so fast but was so fucking good I tend to think about it when Dimitri fucking me good.
I know I shouldn't be having any relations with Taymor but I cannot seem to get over him. Especially after running into him at the carnival. That hug just mmm. I think about him even more now than I used to.
Flashback
IÂ gripped the sheets tighter moaning louder as Taymor thrusted into me mercilessly hitting my prostate.
He deepened my arch grabbing a handful of my hair yanking my head back. My eyes rolled into the back of my head as slob dripped from my mouth.
He sucked viciously at my neck leaving hickeys over the hickeys Dimitri had already put there but we're fading away.
He let my hair go making my head drop. I was so close.
He pulled out making me whimper at the absence of him inside of me.
He slapped my ass letting me know to turn over on my back. I did that and he slowly slid back in me feeling me up inch by inch.
He gave me small fast strokes and kissed me while I stroked myself.
Im loving every inch of this.
Flashback over
"You better not be lying Nick I sw-
"I'm not okay? Not can you stop being a baby and finish what you started" I said getting back on the bed on all fours arching my back looking at him with my finger in my mouth
He sucked his teeth then smirked and began taking his clothes back off.
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My phone buzzed making me look at it turning my attention away from the tv. I looked at Dimitri who was sleep and reached around him grabbing it.
I clicked the screen on.
iMessage
Taymor🕺ðŸ¾ðŸ¤¦ðŸ¾â€â™€ï¸â¤ï¸
I sighed and opened it.
Taymor🕺ðŸ¾ðŸ¤¦ðŸ¾â€â™€ï¸â¤ï¸:
So I dick you down and now you can't
HMU nomoe? Like I'm some whore🙃
:
Now you know it ain't even like that.
I shouldn't have done that with you.
:
I wanna get over you.
:
Im supposed hate you
:
But I can't ☹ï¸
:
I love you too much
:
But I shouldn't
:
So leave me alone so I can get over you
Taymor🕺ðŸ¾ðŸ¤¦ðŸ¾â€â™€ï¸â¤ï¸:
Look Mir
:
No. Don't call me that.
:
I don't like being called that anymore
Taymor🕺ðŸ¾ðŸ¤¦ðŸ¾â€â™€ï¸â¤ï¸:
Your my Mir so I'm going to call you
that forever.
:
There is no forever.
Taymor🕺ðŸ¾ðŸ¤¦ðŸ¾â€â™€ï¸â¤ï¸:
You really mean that?
:
Yes
Taymor🕺ðŸ¾ðŸ¤¦ðŸ¾â€â™€ï¸â¤ï¸:
I've waited years to get you back in my life.
I went through a rough depression.
I literally love tf outta you.
Taymor🕺ðŸ¾ðŸ¤¦ðŸ¾â€â™€ï¸â¤ï¸:
I know I caused you hella pain.
I wish there was I way I could take that shit back.
Taymor🕺ðŸ¾ðŸ¤¦ðŸ¾â€â™€ï¸â¤ï¸:
I just didn't know what I was really feeling
until it was too late. I feel like such a
fucking idiot for what I did.
Taymor🕺ðŸ¾ðŸ¤¦ðŸ¾â€â™€ï¸â¤ï¸:
I don't know why I thought maybe
there could still be an us after what I did.
I'm truly sorry Nicholas.
Taymor🕺ðŸ¾ðŸ¤¦ðŸ¾â€â™€ï¸â¤ï¸:
You don't have to respond to any of this I
just wanted to get that off my chest. I
also want you to know I still feel
the way I did about you like I told you
years ago in your room. (Chapter 6)
Taymor🕺ðŸ¾ðŸ¤¦ðŸ¾â€â™€ï¸â¤ï¸:
It hurts to know I'm about to lose you again
but I deserve it. Your literally amazing,
you deserve the best and that's not me.
Taymor🕺ðŸ¾ðŸ¤¦ðŸ¾â€â™€ï¸â¤ï¸:
I'm gonna stop blowing your phone up now.
I love you Mir ☹ï¸â¤ï¸
I'd be lying if I said I wasn't in tears right now. I just wanna hold Taymor close to me and never let go. But I can't. It's for the best I put him behind me and focus on me and Dimitri.
I wiped my tears and deleted the conversation, blocking his number and deleting it as well.
Step 1: Done ✅
"Baby? You okay?" Dimitri said looking at me. His voice raspy.
I nodded sniffling.
"No your not. C'mere" he said opening his arms.
I scooted over to him and put my head on his chest. He wrapped his arms tightly around me and held me. I shedded a few tears here and there.
He just shushed me and rubbed my back.
"It's okay I got you baby" he said into my ear and kissed my forehead
I slowly drifted off in his arms. I started feeling at ease again. Something I haven't felt in awhile.
Maybe this completely letting Taymor go and focusing on Dimitri will be the right way to go.
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My chest literally hurt when I was writing Tay's texts to Mir. ☹ï¸
