Undesirable

Chapter 6

Chapter 6

Collins P.O.V

I felt like a failure. I should've been more involved with her the last few weeks, try to find her and her information so it didn't just seem like I was using her. But I had a feeling she wasn't telling me who she really was. I shouldn't have slept with her but an overwhelming feeling came over me and my C*ck was thinking instead of my brain. All my morals went out the window.

When Tessa was explaining to that ass of a doctor what was going on with her, and that she was afraid of losing the baby I had a gut wrenching feeling. I know I just found out mere moments before that we were going to have a baby together and she's sixteen years old. I couldn't believe it.

But this felt different. Just like that night I met her she's different and I know that we met for a reason. I just don't know if this is supposed to be right now. She's a minor, she's under the age of consent. I should know I want to be a Federal Agent, this could mess up everything for me.

I had to put myself in her shoes and imagine how scared she must be. Sixteen, pregnant, alone. She's gotta be so terrified with the unexpected.

"How long have you been suffering with the panic attacks?" I asked her as we stood there in the parking lot hugging. I couldn't let her go and it seemed she couldn't either.

Home is what I felt.

We broke the hug and sat down on the bed"I haven't ever had one before. I've always been able to just push through the feeling. I feel tight chested, and the room sort of spins. I think I freak out more at the fact I am struggling to breathe. But that feeling has been going on since I was like 8 or 9." She said, "I think this situation with me lying to my parents, and breaking rules, as much as it feels exhilarating it's just a lot for me."

God dammit.

"What do you mean lying to your parents?" I asked. I'm afraid to ask this question because of the answer. I took her virginity, I got her pregnant, what else am I going to do to her, besides ruining her life.

"My parents are really strict with everything I do. Especially my mom, she's a control freak. Routine appointments to the doctor to make sure I was clean. Homework completed every night. No boys, No parties, except for the night I went to one where we met. She used to make sure I got my period every month which I'm sure she still does."

God dammit.

"Tessa. I don't know if we should be doing this." I know all of that I said before, how this seems like a good idea, that I needed to put me in her shoes, that I was relieved when I found out the baby was okay. There's no way I can do this. I can't get involved when she's so young. I mean her parents go to the extent to make sure she's still a virgin for what?

"What do you mean!" She yelled. "You were the one who decided to come to Denver! You were the one who put me here. You asked the questions!" She could see people look at us, and her cheeks turn bright red, "Collin, remember you decided to c*m in me. I didn't want any of this."

"Tessa that's not fair. I asked you if you wanted to have sex and you didn't deny it, and from what I heard you enjoyed every aspect of what we did. Don't put all of this on me when you were there too!" I yelled back at her.

I got up and walked to my jeep, and left her there.

I feel like an ass, and I feel defeated. I shouldn't treat her this way when it wasn't her fault she got the parents she has. She didn't want any of this just like I didn't. I don't want it at all.

I drive just over 30 miles to go to Vanessa's place. I just had to let this all go, but I needed to talk to her. She's been there since we were in middle school, and I was there for her during the accident. We're truly like siblings.