How To Trust|HS

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SAMMYS POV

"Samantha Coleman I love you" as those words fell from harrys mouth everything in time froze and it was like I was floating on a cloud a escape from reality. did harry styles the harry styles who went through his fathers abuse,parents divorce,terrible child hood forced to leave his mother say he just loved me. "Sam please say somthing" his voice was desperate. very desperate. he is not use to saying those things he has so much he had to hide like a wall built and no one could get inside that is except me. I just broke the walls down and he admitted me loved me. No he admitted he was in love with me there's a huge difference. "sam" his voice was small now I had to think for a moment. am I in love with harry. the harry that I use to despise? the one I have grown accustomed to? all those things he's done for me and everything we have been through and iv stayed by his side am I in love with him? I finally knew the answer yes I am indeed in love with harry styles no denying it.

HARRYS P.O.V.

as those words feel from my lips I meant them. iv never been in love and I was sure I would never be but Sammy she was different it took me 7 months to realize it but I love Sammy Coleman. she just stood there frozen and I was desperate for an answer. she finally blinked and a smile grew on her face "and I'm in love with you" she said I could tell she was being honest it was in her eyes. a smile grew into my face also I wanted no one but Sammy she's mine. just as she was about to speak I pressed my lips against hers and she don't hesitate to return the gesture. I can't believe some one loves me. my mum does I no but no ones ever said that too me despite my terrible child hood I have been told I have many trust issues which leads to my moods. For the past 19 years I have had a wall built up that I would not let anyone break I was scared but sure enough Sammy is here kissing me right now and she broke those walls down to the ground. the kiss deepens and before I knew it she was up against the wall and we were in an extreme make out session. "never leave me" I say between breaths "I'm not planning on it" she pants. finally she pulls away and I do the same "now what" she asks " I don't really no" I said looking down in embarrassment "I'm new at this" she just laughs and takes my hand in hers and we head down the hall.

KAYLEYS P.O.V.

Sammy left god knows how long ago, I don't know where Libby is and I'm stuck here in this boring dorm thinking about louis. literally all I can think about is louis Tomlinson and those blue eyes and brown hair and beautiful face. he's always been handsome but I didn't have the guts to admit it until something happens like this. pathetic right?. just as I was about to start on some homework my phone rings. "hello" I answer without looking at the caller ID "hey kayley" louis voice says through the phone. I feel myself stiffen a little bit "yea hey" I say replaying Sams words In my head to keep me from crying my eyes out. "can you come to the dorm just for a minute if you not busy" he asked my cheeks flush "yeah sure" I stutter and say "be right there" I hang up and go check the bathroom mirror all good to go. I fixed myself up after Sammy left I mean there's no point in looking bad just cause you feel that way right?... I take a deep breath as I knock on the door. "it's open" louis voice shouts softly. I mentally prepare my self as I turn the door knob slowly. as louis and the rest of the room come into view he is sitting on the edge of the bed balancing himself while holding his head. Ok I don't think any mental preparedness is enough to watch this. I feel tears starting to form but quickly wipe them away. I rush over to louis "what's wrong" I say trying not to make my voice to loud. he shakes his head "can you get me that box over there" he asked pointing to a blue box. he called me here to get a box I want to curl up in a corner now if you excuse me. "yeah" I say and quickly go get the box and hand it to him. he takes a pill out of the box and gets a water near by I'm guessing the pills a pain killer. I can't watch this much longer without crying why do I have to be so damn emotional?. after about 2 minutes louis looks up to meet my eyes. his one eye is still swollen shut. and the bruise is barley faded well let's not forget this only happens 4 days ago. "you okay" I ask calmly not wanting to make the obvious headache worse. "yeah" he breathes. "sorry just one if those shitty head aches" he says with a small smile while securing the box. i just nod not at all trusting my voice right now. "you hungry" I ask after a long battle of to speak or not. "yea a little" he says "ok let's go down to the cafeteria or I could bring you back something either or?" I speak. "I kinda want to get out of this room" he says and goes to stand up. he leans against the bed "are you sure" I ask he nods slowly. "ok" I say I head for the door completely forgetting louis state. I'm a god damn idiot. "sorry" I say rushing back to help him. he's not that much taller than I am maybe 4 inches. as I help him by swinging his arm around my shoulders and him balancing on the wall he nearly falls. "oh god are you okay!" I say "yeah everything's just a little dizzy and my head hurts like shit" he half laughs. I on the other hand don't laugh I can't I won't. I just give him a concerned look "calm down love everything is fine" he says. my heart flutters at his choice of words but I turn away not letting him see my cheeks witch are probably flaming right now. "Let's go" I say headed for the door. As we finally make it to the door after many slip ups I sigh In relief "wait" louis says before I open it "what" I ask not turning to him "I think I left my phone over there" he says with a smile. a actually smile. "are you fucking kidding me" I ask Turing to him not being able to hide my small smile. "yes" he says "do you really need it" I laugh "yes" he replied again "ugh" is all I say playfully and let him lean on the wall before going over to grab his phone. "here" I say handing it to him. he slips it in his pocket "thank you" he says and I help him out into the hall. He grabs onto the railing and smiled at me "let's do this" I can't help but manage a small laugh and we head to the cafeteria. once we enter the cafeteria I find josh staring at us "what the hell is his problem" I accidentally say out loud oh shit. "whos" louis asked turning to me. I hit my forehead with my free hand "no one" I say quickly recovering. he gives me a look "kayley come on" even with a black eye, bruised cheek he is still adorable has been since the first day I saw him. "Josh" I mutter not meeting eye contact. "oh" louis says turning to him. "can we please go sit" I beg and pull on his arm. he almost loses balance witch makes me feel guilty "sorry" I mutter staring at my feet. "don't be" he huffs and we continue to the table. As soon as we get to the table I help louis sit down and go get our food. As I waited in line I felt someone's eyes burning Into me. finally after what seemed like forever I got to the front of the line "what would you like" the woman asked "um 2 subs please" I asked with a fake smile "ok here you go" she said handing me the food and I left to go sit down. just then I felt someone staring again I turned to glance at josh and sure enough he was smirking at me. why the fuck was he staring at me. I quickly walked back to the table and took a seat. I handed louis his sub still watching josh "thanks" louis said "yeah" I replied "are you ok you seem distant" he asked half laugh "I'm fine" I said snapping my attention back to my food... Half way through lunch josh started staring at me again. I decided to go confront him as I got up louis glanced up with a confused look "where are you going" he asked "I'll be back" I said still eyeing josh he just nodded. as I walked over to joshes table I sat directly in front of him "what the hell is your problem" I asked "nothing just watching" "why" I asked annoyed "what happen to louis" he asked flatly I tensed a bit this conversation makes me really uncomfortable "what" I asked while josh stated smirking again "was he beat up or somthing" josh asked "no duh Sherlock why the hell do you care anyway" I asked sarcastically "woh fistey aren't we" he laughed. "please stop stalking me" I asked "ok but who best him up" why the hell does he keep bring this up "I don't want to talk about it" I say quietly avoiding eye contact "some one beat the shit out if Marcus you no that right?" he asked "yes" I replied "I no" "who" he asked "it's none of your business none of this is just please stop watching me" I say reminding myself why I came over here . With that I got up and walked back to the table.

LOUIS P.O.V.

I followed kayley with my eyes as she walked to another table. I couldn't make out exactly who she was talking to my vision was still a bit blury. about 5 minutes later she came and sat back down. "what was that about" I asked. her eyes didn't meet mine as she said "nothing it was nothing" she stared down at her hands under the table. "kayley come on" I said for the second time today "nothing ok" she snapped "fine" I said she sighed and looked up "sorry but I just don't really want to talk about it" she said quietly "I get it" I said sincerely. if she doesn't want to talk about it I'm not going to make her. her blonde hair was covering her face as she looked down and her green eyes were duller than usual something made her uncomfortable. there was nothing I could really do about it considering my state at the moment. god I hate Marcus. as we were leaving the cafeteria and emerging into the hall I felt a slight pain in my head. then everything started going blurry. and my head started spinning and hurting like shit. I let go of kayley and slid down the wall holding my head in my hands. I was having one of my head aches "fuck" I muttered as the pain increased. "louis" kayley said shaking my knee "hey" she said trying to get my attention "are you okay" I just shook my head witch didn't help much. I finally looked up to see kayley. there were tears steaming down her cheeks she was bending down to my head level "it fucken hurts" I exclaimed. "what do I do" she asked her breath hitched "nothing you can do" I say shaking my head "wait for it to pass I guess" I add she sighs and sits next to me. "How long do they usually last" she asked I sighed "not sure I usually have my pain killers" I mutter "of course" she mumbles. "Shit" I mutter the pain increases. I hold my head once again. "Does it hurt again" she asked her voice shaky "yeah" I manage. I see her put her head in her hands once again. i wish I could comfort her but I don't no what to say. I could say it's fine but it's not. I could tell her not to cry but she will. after about 4 minutes it passes and a wave of relief washes over me. I look over to see kayley staring blankly at the ground. I nudge her lightly. she looks up to meet my gaze "ready" I ask her quietly she just nods her head and stands up. she quickly helps me up "thanks" I say awkwardly staring at the ground. She just gives me a small smile and we walk back to my dorm. Once we reach the door kayley opens it and In we walk. "um you can stay if you want." I say "ok what should we do" she says unsure of her answer. who could blame her?. "We could play 20 questions" I suggest "ok" she says. "First question: why did you help me with Marcus?" I asked she stiffened a little "because I'm just helping a friend" she simply replies a couple more questions go by there just simple ones. "This is kinda boring" she says giving me that adorable small smile "I no" I laugh. "Now what" she asked twiddling with her thumbs "I don't no" I reply "I have to go it's Almost 9:00 you no the rules" she says i glance at the clock time goes by so fast "yeah um I'll see you tomorrow" I say "ok" she says and starts to get up and leave. before she exits I say "hey kayley" "yeah" she turns to me "thanks for uh... you know helping me today" I say nervously. "yeah no problem" she replied then leaves. Well today was one interesting day.

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Hey I hope everyone likes this book please comment and vote and also I'm writing a new book.... I'll still be updating this one frequently but if your into niall horan fanfictions go check it out it's called 'lost thoughts' thanks!!