How To Trust|HS

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SAMMYS POV

It's been a 2 days sense the fight at the party went down. Harry has gotten a little better which I'm thankful for because every so often when I think about it I get damn emotional just at the fact of him being hurt and I can't help but think of the worst possibility but I'll let that rather touchy subject drop. I just got out of my last class today thank god, iv had to work alone I'm nature hell well because harry can't come back till Monday yeah you get my point. "Hey" kayley said as she approached me "hey what's up" I reply with a smile "I'm going out tonight" she says nudging me. "congrats!" I excliam, I'm happy for her and all but I can't help but feel a bit jealous considering she is going out and my boyfriend is stuck in bed not able to walk without assistance, but I'm happy. "thanks he's taking me to some suprise place" she states "that'll be fun" I reply already not wanting to continue the conversation. I haven't heard from harry sense that night we were texting so I don't really no what's up with him. you could mabye say I don't have the strength to face him, I no how stupid it sounds but that's just how I feel. "sam" kayley says waving a hand in front of my face "yeah" I ask snapping out of my thoughts "you okay" she half laughed "yeah fine" I half lied. no I'm not completely ok right now. "well I'll se you later" kayley says "bye" I reply waving to her and off she goes, well I guess it's just me and my thoughts now. "sam" I hear a all to finillar voice say, I squeeze my eyes shut then open them and turn around, and I was correct there harry is leaned against the wall struggling to go down the hallway, cue the outburst. I rush over to help him "what the actual fuck are you doing" I Hiss/whisper. "trying to get my homework" he says "you got up for fucken homework" I say even though he just told me "yea if I didn't I would have my dad banging on my door for missing school work." he says "doesent he no that you can barley walk" I say slowing down at the last part and raising my voice a bit. "he doesent care I just don't need him at my door." he shrugs I scuff "you could have asked someone" I say he just shrugs, his face cleared up a tiny but but not to much "are you still as bad as you were 2 days ago" I ask silently "yeah it's only been 2 days the nurse said about a month" I cringe at the word month it seems like such a long time. I start to feel tears threaten my eyes but I push them away nows not the time. "what classes do you need it from" I ask quietly "I will get them I made it this far" he states "I'm coming" I say looking up. "ok" he agrees. I start to walk a little ahead "Sam could you wait up a bit" harry calls u turn around. wow he really can't walk well he has to use all his support on the railing and he's limping. "yeah" I say Quietly, I was going to offer to help but we have had this conversation before. he winced a couple of times but didn't let it affect him. I just waked by his side with my hand in my pockets staring at the ground. "I'll go in and get it" he says reaching for the door "no" I state quickly "I'll do it you wait here" I say "Sam I can do it" he says slightly annoyed "bull" I snap he looks taken aback and puts his hands up as to signial that I could do it. I don't give him a second look and go into the room. finally after 7 classrooms and walking down multiple hallways we are done. we are currently walking to dinner. harry stops "what's wrong" I ask turning to him "nothing" he says trough clenched teeth grasping his ribs. i frown at him he does not pay attention. he squeezes his eyes shut and realsed a breath I notice there are tears streaming down my face watching this, but I can't bring myself to look away. he finally opens his eyes and gives a small smile which helps a little but not much "sam" he says approaching me I put my hand out to signal him to stop he stays put. "let's just go in" I say wiping my tears, I don't want his pity when he is the one who should be getting my pity and again we already had that conversation. He just nods silently and we go to the cafeteria, grab our food and sit down in silence. I no I am acting like a bitch and I have no reason to I am not the one hurt. but it hurts me just as much to see harry hurt. the worst part is he's hurt also physically now, which means I have to be reminded who am I kidding that's literally all I think about most of the time. "sam" harry nudged me silently "yeah" I asked turning to him "you zoned out there" he said trying to hide his smile "yeah I guess" I said and letting a small laugh escape. "What are you thinking about anyway" he asked looking over to me. oh nothing much just you "nothing" I simply say he nods getting the message not to push it. During dinner everyone made small talk, and we laughed a little and before I knew it, it was over. so I got up and threw my tray away. emerging into the hall and wanting to get back to my dorm as quick as possible. I finally reached my dorm with no distractions and entering I see louis and kayley "oh hey" they say turning to me "hi" I said "well I'll be back" I say not wanting to enturpet there plans that obviously were taking place in my room. I sighed and decided just to walk the halls. I then see the one person iv been dreading all week josh. he was waking down the hall he had a few bruises but not near harrys condition. I decided to confront him. "why the hell do you look fine?" I ask grabbing his attention he has a suprised look on his face. "oh Sam" he stutters "don't fucken oh Sam me why the hell do you look ok" I snap "I got some extra help I no people" he replies, oh I didn't think he would tell me. "oh" is all I could manage "I'm sure I'm still worse then harry" he adds. that pissed me off "no actually josh your not, he can barley walk thanks to you and hear you are perfect why he has to go threw hell and back because of you josh, you are wrong and this is all your fault." I hadnet realized I started crying, well there was no point in trying to stop them now. I just stood there waiting for an answer "look I was drunk" is all he says I laugh "oh you were drunk and that means you get to get in a fight then get your special help" I snap he doesent say anything. "fuck you" I say shaking my head "wait sam" he says making me freeze "what" I ask harshly turning around to face him. he has guilt in his eyes but I couldn't care less "how bad is he" he asks "why the hell should I tell you?" I snap harshly. he looks taken aback "you don't have to" he finally says. I let out a breath I didn't release I was holding in. "I got to go" I say turning to walk the oppeset way and stopped dead in my tracks there harry was standig there with a shocked/suprised/sad look on his face "I can't do this" I mutter brushing past him and letting the tears escape my eyes. I turn the corner not able to handle it anymore I slide down the wall and hug my knees and just cry. I hate being emotional. a few minutes later I hear someone shuffling towards me I don't bother to look up and at this point it could be josh for all I care, exactly I don't care anymore. "sam" a voice says it's was harry. I don't do anything I hear him sitting down next to me "please look at me Sam" he says shakily I turn to look at him. he looks broken I just want to cry more. "please don't cry" he pleas. i just shake my head and put it back down "how can I not" I manage. he doesent reply. " I heard your whole conversation" he mutters "yeah and" I ask not getting the point "you stood up for me" he says his cheeks flushing "yeah and" I asked again "thanks" he said his cheeks heating up I laugh "I wasent just going to stand there" I say trying to hide my smile of him blushing. "well anyway we should get back to the dorms" he says grab the railing to host himself up. I can't stand this anymore josh needs to pay for what he's done to all of us. tomorrow I will go to the dean and tell him everything, from setting up Marcus to picking a fight with harry, I don't care if I sound Crazy but I need to get it out. I snapped back into reality and stood back up wiping my tears as well. "sam" harry asked his voice pained "yeah" I ask turning around "can you help me back to my dorm I'm really sore right now and my head is killing me" he admits and my heart shatters I feel tears coming again but I push them back. "Sure" I say quietly and help him limp. "are you okay?" he asks as we head down the hall "fine" I mutter "don't lie to me" he says "I'm just thinking" I say. and that's the truth I can't get my mind off telling the dean about josh. "about what" he asks. should I tell him? no. "nothing" I state shrugging he just nods "are you okay?" I ask turning the attention to him "getting there" he says with a sigh I feel so bad for him I don't no what it's like it to be beat up or how to deal with it. I simply nod. once we reach his dorm he sits on his bed and I sit across from him. "so what are your plans tomorrow?" he asks "nothing much just have some things to do why?" I ask "oh just wondering" he quickly responds I give him a suspicious look but let it slide. "you should stay" he says breaking the silence. "ok" I say it's only 7:30 so why not I have nothing better to do" "wanna watch a movie" he asks leaning up against the bed post "sure what movie" I ask "doesent matter" he shrugs "ok" I say scrolling through all the movies on the tv. we decide on a movie and click play I sit awkwardly not knowing where to sit. "come here" harry says scooting over and patting the spot next to him "are you sure you could use the-" I then am cut off "it's fine" he laughs and I can't help but smile a little back it was a real laugh not a fake one. I sit next to him on the bed and hug my knees to my chest he puts his arm over my shoulder and pulls me close to him, and I lay my head On his shoulder. Half way trough the movie I feel my eye lids get heavy and struggle to stay open. "you can go to sleep if you want" harry whispers into my ear. it sends shivers down my spine at his minty breath. i yawn and cuddle up next to him,he holds me close and with that I feel myself drift off.

I wake up and take in my surroundings. I am in harrys dorm. wait what! oh shit I feel asleep here last night I remember. I look over to my write to see a sleeping harry. oh. my. god. this is the cutest thing I have ever seen! I glance at the clock and it says 4:00 am today's Thursday so I will have to get up, I feel harry shift and his eye kids flutter open. he blinks a few times before he noticed I'm there. "your cute when you sleep" he says sheepishly "I can say the same about you" I say with a smile. he just laughs. "hey it's 4:00 I should go" I say not wanting to leave "ok I'll take you back" he says "no it's fine you need to rest you go back Monday" i say remembering he is hurt. "it's fine" he assured me. I give him a concerned look "please" he begs catching me off guard he wants to come? "ok" I say not wanting to argue already knowing who will win. I get up and head for the door with harry stumbling after me. I quickly go to help him but he pushes away "Sam don't make me feel helpless" he says playfully "oh ok" I say walking ahead of him on purpose "your not helping" he yells and I have to grab the railing to keep my balance and I burst out into laughter. for some reason I found that really funny. "haha very funny" he says walking in front of me "it kinda is" I say smiling a little. he just puts his arm around my shoulder and we continue walking. As we reach my dorm I sat "thanks for walking me back" "it's nothing" he says we just stare at each other for a moment before I can't contain myself anymore I press my lips against him catching him by surprise but he immdenalty kisses back. in the middle of the kiss "i.love..you..so..much" I pant and his smile grows really wide lightning up the dim hallway "I love you too" he says and we continue to kiss our hearts out.