You catch yourself staring at the street lamp again
Lost in thought
Spiralling down and down
And down and
Down
The cold night air let's you feel like your head is just above the water and you're not drowning
Everything's becoming too much nowadays
The school work too heavy
The list too long to remember
They hate you too much
They love you too much
You're worried it's not real
Some parts seem too good to be true yet you don't have the smile of that a girl in love
You stare with a blank face and blank eyes
Singing along to hostage
Hoping you'll wake up tomorrow and feel something better than this
Everyone's getting better around you
But you're stuck
They seen too dependent on you
If you let the mask slip for even a second they catch the edge of it and rip it away from you
But no, you keep up the facade so easily
Feeling out before hand, letting it slip on purpose just to see how and what they notice
You feel so horrible for doing this
But you have to
Colour should be growing in your universe but it's only draining away
Everything should feel bright and light and happy
But it doesn't
It feels grey and silent and just...
Off
I feel off
I have everything, no, I have what I wanted but I don't feel any lighter
I still feel like I'm being dragged down into this pit
Am I that broken
That glue won't work?
