AS I PUSH YOU AWAY

Chapter 5: GLOOMY FRIDAY

SOPHIA IZABELLE

I stood up at sinimulang sundan si Nate.
I tried looking him everywhere but he was nowhere nowhere to be found. So I decided to just go back to our classroom, wondering about his whereabouts.

Until dismissal came...

Pumunta ako saglit sa dorm upang ilapag ang bag ko and change my outfit to a faded skinny jeans and a pink statement shirt that says, "Be still." paired with a white sneakers.

Napag-isipan kong pumunta sa National Book Store to buy some school supplies and uhm-- books. Yas, love it!

After looking for the things and books I want, dumiretso na ako sa counter. I am the next person in the counter to pay my products when someone poked my shoulder. I am busy with my "facebook thing" so I didn't mind it. There was a poke again so iniwas ko na ang aking balikat. Ngunit 'di nagpatinag ang sino mang asungot na ito and poked my shoulder again.

"Ano ba? Ano bang problema mo?"

I faced the guy, and praise God in heaven for creating such a beautiful creature.

"Ipapa-include ko lang sana itong book na binili ko since there was many who already lined up first and I saw my classmate who already lined up first. So, is it okay?"

I only nodded him as a reply dahil ba speechless ako sa kanya.

"I'm sorry for the disturbance Sophie but I'm really in a hurry, that's why kinapalan ko na ang mukha kong mag approach sa'yo. So, yeah... please."

"It's fine, Louis. Give me that book and your money."

Ikaw pa? Malakas ka sa'kin eh.

Louis handed me the book and his money

He then thanked me after ko na pa-counter yung book nya and we parted ways.

Gustuhin ko mang mag taxi pauwi ngunit mas pinili kong maglakad na lamang dahil gusto kong tumalon talon ng slight because uhm-- okay, kinikilig ako.

Err--

Napahinto ako sa paglalakad nang...

I saw my Dad with his new family in the park na medyo malayo sa kinaroroonan ko.
Iyong babaeng ipinalit niya kay mommy ay may hawak na ice cream na isinusubo sa batang karga karga naman ni Daddy.

Ang saya nila. Ang saya. Ang saya saya.

At kasabay ng pagbuhos ng ulan sa langit, ay ang pagdaloy ng mainit na likido mula sa aking mga mata.

Papaalis na sana ako dahil ang sakit na ng nakikita ko nang may nahagip na naman ang mga mata ko, di kalayuan kina daddy.

It was Nate.

And he's with someone.

Someone I don't know.

And someone who's much more beautiful than me.

Ah, kaya pala di na siya bumalik kanina

Now, I know.

He was holding an umbrella para protektahan iyong babae sa pagkabasa ng tubig ulan.
And his other hand wiping the wet part of the girl's face. After that, I saw him chuckled then kissed the tip of her head.

I don't know why but there was a part of my chest that was suddenly ripped.

After doing that, his gaze found mine.

Gustohin ko mang tumalikod na at maglakad palayo ngunit di ko magawa.

May kinuha siyang isang payong at sinimulan niyang lakarin ang daan patungo sa akin.

Sana may payong rin na shield sa mga luha noh?
I didn't mind kung nababasa na ako ng lintik na ulan.

"Next time, when you go out, please, bring an umbrella. I'm not always there to accompany you."

He said while holding an umbrella as shield from the cold rain.

Hinapit nya ang aking bewang at hinubad ang jacket na suot.

"Here, wear this."

Isinuot nya ito sa akin atsaka kami naglakad papalayo.

Papalayo sa lugar na iyon.

Papalayo sa sakit.

"Salamat...

Louis."

Nate arrived late.

Bago pa man siya tuluyang makalapit sa akin, may nauna nang dumating.

And it was... Louis.

Today, the weather was gloomy.
So does, my heart.

Today, Nate was late.
Louis came first.

A gloomy and late day.

Above all... this day was never an okay day for me.

Instead of, thank God, it's Friday.

It became...

A gloomy Friday.