Cheer Up Buttercup

prologue

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I'm not really good at stopping myself from falling for someone. it's a habit of mine that can't seem to go away. I usually just falling straight in once they give me a second of attention like opening the door for me and so on. I admit, I've crushed on quite a few guys but it's not my fault they're good looking. my first crush's name was Charlie and to get me to fall for him wasn't hard at all.he just looked at me the BAM I was in love. from then on I know crushes wasting to be hard in my life. the good thing is that those feelings for those crushes go away after awhile. after I realise that guy wasn't meant for me. but this habit is bad when you end up falling for your best friend's boyfriend.

My best friend and her boyfriend actually started dating because everyone suggested it. They're both really attractive people and share most interests, that's why people think that they make such a perfect couple. It was only a few months ago they made it official and it was like the new hot thing at our school.

I supported their relationship one hundred percent. But after getting to know him after having a deep conversation with him after they had yet another argument, my feelings started to get out of hands after awhile...

I kid you not, I didn't mean to fall for him. I'm not that type of person to date my best friend's boyfriend nor steal. but to be fair, I actually had an interest in him before my best friend, Blair and I even met. his name is devan. I met him unexpectedly at a coffee shop when I may or may not have accidentally thought was an employee there and I may or may not have asked him to get me a depresso espresso.

I know a depresso espresso sounds weird but I was kinda dealing with some tough stuff at that time which obviously made me quite sad. I didn't expect that he'd give me life advice after that and I never expected pouring my heart out and ranting to some random guy who I thought worked there. it's just a little crush I swear. Im not trying to take him away from her, I would never choose a boy over best friends. Fries before guys right?

I haven't spoken to devan much after they started dating. We only talk when they get into fights and I'm the one who always fixes the situation. I guess I'm the 'comforter' who basically is only there to fix their fights. They do fight a lot. It's usually about their trust issues and I don't blame them. Recently they have been acting really distant than usual. Usually they'd just say hi and how are you, hug and then walk away. I know what you're thinking, there's not much chemistry between them but everyone still adore their relationship mainly because they're both really attractive.

I would never taken deven away from Blair even if I had the chance. It's wrong and I respect their relationship and their choices. But as much as I've tried to get these dumb feelings I have for deven, they just can't seem to stop.

I have tried forcing myself to like other guys but I can't. The more I search for another guy the more I realise they arent that attractive like deven is. I don't even find my first crush attractive anymore! I don't know what's gotten into me.

You can call me a bad friend or whatever but let me say again that I would never try anything to get with my best friends boyfriend

It's just a small crush...
That is eating me up inside

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