Risks

7

Tyler POV

"Tyler stop!"
I flinched at the voice and the sudden warmth on my hand that jerked it back away from my awaiting wrist. I opened my eyes to see Ethan with tears in his eyes, "Tyler! Please, don't do it!"
I felt myself begin to shake,
"E-ethan..."
I let go of the blade as tears clouded my vision as the small man just hugged me as tightly as he could, "Tyler please don't, please! You mean so much to everyone! To me!" My knees buckled underneath me and we sank to the floor while hugging each other. He felt so warm and everything was so quiet except for the soft thumping of his heart and my sobs.

I groaned softly and squinted when there was sudden light and blinked rapidly to help my eyes adjust. My back and left arm hurt when I moved and then looked around, seeing that in was still in the bathroom.
I guess I fell asleep.
Looking up, I see Ethan's face, he looked a bit tired and he moved over to me, "Morning." His voice sounded scratchy and one side of his face was red where he had slept and I rubbed my face, "Did I fall asleep in the bathroom?" Last night came into my mind and I let out a heavy sigh, "I'm so sorry that you saw that."

Ethan's pov
My eyes widened slightly, "Don't apologize Tyler, we all have rough times." I walked over to him and pulled him into another hug, "I'm just glad I caught you in time." I heard the crack in my own voice and tried not to break down. "Tyler, Tyler, you scared me. I thought I had lost you completely."
He means more to me than he would ever know. I'm trapped in an relationship with a man who doesn't care for me.
Why did I agree to that?
Because Tyler isn't gay and I thought I needed someone else to get over him.
But no matter what I tried, my heart only felt so giddy around him. I couldn't just give him up, even if he would never love me back the way I wish he would.
He is my everything.
"I'm sorry that I scared you Ethan, I...I...I thought everything would be better without me..." He stammered a bit and I pulled back to look at him, "Tyler, no. Without you everyone would just give up. Without you nothing would matter. You matter Tyler, you matter! You make such a different! More than you know, please don't ever give in. We are here to help you, I'm here to help you." My heart pounded heavily in my chest to be so close to the man I had feeling for.
"I feel like it doesn't matter." He replied softly, "I feel like I don't matter, I'm a waste of space here. I'm useless."
I let out a soft breath, and closed my eyes for a second, before I opened them again and looked at him, "I want to show you how much you mean to me." He looked at me, "Yeah?" I was risking our friendship this way but I wanted him to finally know, after all these years that I've known him, just how much I really loved him. I took another deep breath and just leaned forward as quickly as I could and pressed a kiss to his lips.

After a few seconds I pulled away and waited for the slap across the face, the anger.
But...it never came...
I opened my eyes to see Tyler looking at me with a huge blush on his face "Ethan...?" "I'm so sorry! That was stupid!" Before he could say more, I jumped up and hurried out of the bathroom, through his bedroom door and downstairs as quick as I could, my face burning hot. I heard Tyler calling behind me but I was afraid to face him and I hurried outside and just disappeared down the sidewalk.

Tyler pov

I sat there after Ethan had placed a kiss to my lips and everything seemed to just stop and all I could think about was his soft, plump lips that pulled away from mine far too quickly.
I looked at him and he looked like he was bracing himself for something. I stared at him and he opened his eyes to look at me, our faces mirrored each other from the red blush, and I opened my mouth to speak, "Ethan...?"
"I'm so sorry! That was stupid!" And before I had a chance to say more he darted out of the door and out of my room.
I struggled to get to my feet and stumbled after him, "Ethan! Wait!" I caught a glimpse of him running out of the front door and I hurried down the stairs and ran to the front door but, by the time I got outside, he was gone from sight.
Shit, he took off!
I ran back into the house, searching for my shoes when I heard several footsteps and glanced up to see the other three looking at me, confused.
"Gotta get Ethan!" I said quickly and raced back out the door, going down in the direction I figured he would have gone.

~several hours later~

Ethan's pov

I ran for quite a while and when I stopped for a breath, I wasn't really sure where I was. I'm still pretty new to L.A. and I don't know every single place, plus like an idiot, I forgot my phone back at Mark's so I had no contact with any of them.
Fuck...what do I do now? It's really early, not that many people are up and about. I guess I should wander until I can find someone who can help me.
I rubbed my face a bit and just started down the sidewalk, looking for any place that would be open so early in the morning.

I wandered for what felt like forever until I came across a small cafe that happened to be open and I walked inside and over to the counter, "Um, excuse me?" I looked around, no one seemed to be here, and I tapped the small bell on the counter. "One second!" Came a muffled reply and I leaned against the counter and just looked over the menu, if I had my wallet I'd probably buy something.
I turned to stare out the door as I waited for whoever was going to come forward and tell me where I am. It was really peaceful and I let my mind wander around a bit.
I can't believe I ran away from Tyler, that was stupid of me to do. I didn't get to explain why I kissed him or even allow him to speak to me to understand this mess that I suddenly threw us into.
I yawned and stretched when suddenly someone grabbed my arm and forced something over my mouth and nose!
I immediately began to panic and tried to escape their strong grasp, but everything was becoming fuzzy and fading in and out.

Jordan pov

How lucky can I be that my little Baby Boy came back to me. I quickly knocked him out with the bit of laughing gas I had in the back. Carefully I stroked his soft cheek and just smiled, "Don't worry Baby, everything will be okay now."