Intoxicated With You (BWWM)

Chapter nineteen

The music is Sia - big girls cry. Hope you all like the music with the chapter.

Katherine's POV

The next morning Nicholas and I did wake up in the same position from the night before. I had promptly gone to take care of my hygiene needs and he did the same. Minutes later the morning nurse came around to do her rounds and let us know once I saw the doctor for the last review I am free to check out.

I felt fine nothing is aching or bothering me. The night of sleep I had here seemed to do the trick. After I listened to the doctor's final notes he made it clear though I should still get at least a week more of rest to be sure.

Nicholas is solemn the entire morning. He didn't speak much but his caring gestures made me feel loved even so. I still wasn't quite sure what is bothering him I made a note for us to talk later. He'd left and got us breakfast from a dinner close by and a fresh pair of clothes to wear when it's time for us to go. I knew I have to tell him about what happened to me but It wasn't the most exciting conversation to have. Plus I didn't feel like thinking about it so soon. I planned to tell him tonight once I've digested it.

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We went to my parent's place made sure to lock up and head back to his home for the rest of the day. Nicholas said he needed an hour to take care of something when we went in. I didn't push about what it is. After all, I wasn't being an honest person at the moment. I also didn't want him to realize this if I pried. With nothing else to do, I decided to call my mom because I missed her and I needed to talk about it with someone, even if it couldn't be Nicholas first. I had to get it off my chest. Mom answered the phone sounding pleasantly surprised by my call.

"Honey I didn't expect to hear from you so soon before Christmas."

She sounded happy to hear my voice. I was usually busy around this time of year with winter break coming up and all.

"I need to tell you something."

I knew she would be worried by the way I said this. But I couldn't be too concerned about that right now or I might not say what's on my mind. I know I shouldn't be afraid but I am.

"What is it? Is everything good?" She asked me.

I guess I should just start at the beginning then. I went into detail about how I reconnected with Nicholas. How we were dating for two months now. That I'm trying to get my memories back from our past. After I caught her up to speed about how I fainted when we went to our first-grade classroom. I told her while I was in the hospital I remembered something I never knew happened to me. Now I only had the final thing to confess but I feel scared to say it. Even though I coming to accept it, it's another thing to admit it out loud.

"Mom I was raped."

The deafening silence that came next made my eyes begin to water. She must be shocked to hear this.

How does a mother react to her child saying such things?

"Honey are you okay?" She asked then.

"I hope you'd never remember."

"What do mean mom? Did you know?"

Has anything been true these past 25 years? Do I even really know myself?

"I did Honey. When you were 12 one night you came home late and you weren't yourself. The look in your eye when your father and I saw you said it all. It's like the light that was there got ripped away."

"Katherine, you were screaming and crying. When I held my little girl in my arms, I knew you weren't the same. Once we got you to calm down I laid by your side until you fell asleep. Before you did, you told me what happened."