I dated twins...

the week that just didnt go

my heart broke as I got the message from the hospital, taron had been admitted. it was my fault if I had just shot Ryan he wouldn't be there. my cheeks were suddenly wet with despair and pain. what the hell had I done.

he had given me his ring as a promise no matter what I wouldn't leave his side and I did exactly that. I continued to stare in the mirror at my enlarged stomach. what had I done?

crystal ran into my room as I started to sob heavily. "what whats wrong? whats going on?! oh jesus is it the baby? are you bleeding anywhere?" I shook my head and showed her my phone. "I never told him, I thought I could keep it a secret and eventually I would tell him" she stared at me mixed emotions lurking in her eyes. "your joking right?! your pregnant for fuck sake louisa! you thought you could keep that a secret?! you dont think he would have noticed you putting on weight? eating more? mood swings randomly?" I nodded my head "I would have told him before that!" she scoffed and paced along the floor. "you couldnt have for god sakes louisa! you really are oblivious to your situation aren't you?!" I nodded. she wasn't wrong. how could I have kept his child from him after promising everything that I had?                                                                                                                                  this mess just keeps getting bigger and bigger. I clutched my stomach as something kicked and I instantly felt the need to be sick. crystal saw the sudden change In me and handed me a bucket. I felt at ease as I handed back the bucket full of todays breakfast.

"im sorry louisa but we have to get you to him before tom gets there first" I nodded, grabbed my coat and tried my hardest not to pull her to the ground as we headed for the stairs. "lift?" she asked with a hopeful gleam in her eyes. I nodded feeling uncomfortable. I stared at the ring on my middle finger and smiled taking myself back into the memory I had been fondest of this year....

I sat on the sofa watching tv back at the institute before everything kicked off and we went to kick Ryan's ass. I was watching Riverdale and admittedly I was really getting into it. I was eating cereal from the box as a sudden wave of hunger had hit again.
It was strange I had never felt this hungry but honestly I thought nothing of it.

Train came through the door smelling a little like alcohol but I thought in his line of work it wasn't that much of a big deal. I had no idea how it would affect me in the future.
He came over to me and hugged me tightly.
I pushed him away gently and asked what he was doing.

"I need to give you something, I have thought a lot about this and I want to do it anyway, it may not be the greatest thing to do but I want to" I laughed and looked at what he was doing. He slid the ring from his finger and slid it onto mine as I stuffed my mouth with some more cornflakes.

"Tarot what are you-"

"I Taron Mathews am in love with you Louisa and I want you to wear this ring as a promise from me to you, I will always be there for you I will hold in sickness and in health and I will take care of you no matter what happens or where life takes us" I chuckled as he kissed me gently before going to bed. Well I say that but what happened was he fell onto the bed after standing up and walking over there half asleep.

I slept on the sofa. God knows what we were but I loved him too I just didn't want to say it while he was drunk in case he forgot.

... I had no idea that whatever happens would have meant a baby.
Or killing a guy who ignored me half my life and set up the kidnapping of his own sister and mine and my aunt for my twisted backwashed lunatic doppelgänger.
We were about to head out to the car when I realised where exactly I was, coming out of my trance.
"Louisa would you hurry the hell up, it won't be long before Tom gets the same message!" I tried to run while holding my stomach to her just outside the apartment building door.

I let it shut behind me as I got into the car. We drove quickly to the hospital she really was desperate to see us reunite judging by her reckless driving. One hand on the dashboard and the other on the baby I begged for her to slow down but she wasn't changing it.

"What happened to the reasonable friend I just had!?"

"She changed as she watched you stare at that bloody ring for a 15 minute lift ride that shouldn't really have been 15 minutes" I laughed nervously as we skidded into a parking space just outside the hospital entrance.

She helped me out the car and practically carried me to the front desk as she speed walked into the building.
"Taron Mathews" she said doing the knocking symbol. The lady looked at her confused but her co-worker nodded behind her and took us down many halls to him on a guarded side room. They saw me and moved away. One of the guards was the same guy that challenged me on my first training session.

"Good to see you on your feet princess" he winked with a smirk. I chuckled "thank you" he opened the door and went back to his serious expression once we were inside. He shut the door behind us and I went and sat beside Taron. Crystal stuck to the other side of the room attempting to give us some space though truthfully there wasn't a lot.

Days passed into nearly a week and he still hadn't woken up.
I was sure he would have done by now. I was praying for it but, no. The life support seemed to be the only thing keeping him alive. Which turned my mind darker than me or crystal had expected. We tried to take our minds off it but nothing would work.
The guards would come in when they're shifts were done and we'd chat about all the good moments we'd had with him. That helped a little but I couldn't get the thought of death out of my mind.
I knew time would come soon and I knew of all people he would notice the bump. I was hoping he wouldn't be too angry with me.
I didn't want him to be angry with me but I knew even if I begged it wouldn't work.

The nurses started to come on and out every couple of minutes just to make sure he was okay.

I never imagined I'd end up this way. I always thought it would be the other way around. I mean I was the one who wasn't meant to be on this world so it should have been me right?
There were so many times I thought it would be me but here we are.

Here we are...