My Roommate (Harry Styles)

10. There's no going back

After that night, I went straight to bed without even addressing a word to Harry. It was a cool night even if my mind was far far away, it didn't really help my case. Maybe Zayn did though. He is so ... well so much, I can't put words on it, talking to him felt really good, even if I didn't tell him much, it was enough. I made my decision and I'm certainly not going back.

Sunday morning. The sun shines through my window blinding me, I groan. I get up, put some shorts and a decent t-shirt on and I make my way to the kitchen, my mind's drifting. I take a bowl, pour some milk in and add cereals. I sit on a stool at the kitchen bar and begin eating, as I put my first bite in my mouth, I feel a hand on my right shoulder. Harry.

"Hey Emma, how are you feeling today?" He asks, his hot breath on my neck sending chills all over my body.

"Erm fine... I'm fine." I answer, my voice cracking a bit.

"Can we talk?" He says taking a sit in front of me.

"Talk about what?" I snap, he sighs exasperated "Emma, don't act like a fucking kid, you're not talking to me since two days now, you're avoiding me, why? I think I have the right to know." he says looking straight in my eyes, I search a sign of any emotions in his eyes but I don't find any, he just seems lost, I guess I'm not the only one.

"Look Harry I'm sorry... It's just that these days have been really hard for me, you know with the pressure Kyle gives me at the agency and Kaylee's departure." I say "But I'm feeling better now, I shouldn't have pushed you away, I'm sorry."

"That's it?" He asks "What? Don't you think it's enough?" I snort.

"No, but when you came home that night, there were marks on your arm and you seemed pretty angry, what happened? Did someone hurt you? Tell me Emma." He says looking concerned.

"Kyle, my manager said that I needed to make more efforts if I wanted a big contract, he's putting one of my colleague who's also a very good friend, and I in competition, that just pissed me off. And for the marks I bumped against a broken metal fence when I get out of my car."

Wow, it was so smooth that I almost believe it myself.

Harry smiles and says "Wow okay." he pauses "I can understand but please don't keep me in the dark, I'm here if you want to talk. I know I'm not the best friend ever but you can trust me, okay?"

I genuinely smile at him "Thanks Harry." Can I really trust him? I really want to believe him but it's hard. I wanted to ask him so much things, like what are we, friends with benefits? Just friends? Are we even a thing? But now isn't the good time I think.

He takes a mug and makes himself a coffee then he sits back in front of me.

"So what are you planning to do today?" he asks sipping on his coffee.

"Nothing much." I mutter.

"I'm hanging out with Niall today, wanna come?"

"Where are you guys going?" I ask.

"Um I don't know actually, we'll just hang at his house I guess."

"Okay, well I'd rather stay here, I don't feel like going out anyway."

"Suit yourself." he winks while getting up "I'm gonna change myself." he says as he makes his way to his room.

I get up too, and put my mug in the sink. Guess I'll be on my computer all day, I don't know why I feel this lazy today. I go into my room and bring my computer in the living room. I turn the TV on as background noise and lay on the couch, my computer on my lap. I start to check some videos on Youtube, it's been so long since I haven't been there. I begin to watch videos of the o2l guys, I always loved Kian, for being loud and somehow annoying, but also because he's insanely cute. As I'm watching the videos, I see Harry walking towards me, I cut the video.