Falling in Love With Your High School Bully

chapter 33

i woke up feeling lost.

depressed. sad. alone. paranoid.

emma came into my room and laid down on my bed.

"hello!!" she giggled.

i sort of looked away, i didn't want her to see me.

"what's wrong?" she touched my hand but i snatched if away.

"taylor?" she sounded terrified.

"call carter, tell him to babysit you today.." i lightly said.

"but taylor, i wa-"

"go!" i said loudly.

she sighed and walked out of my room.

i closed the door and dug my head between my knees.

i rocked back and forward.

my head was pounding.

what is wrong with me today?

i looked up and saw my skateboard.

i quickly got up and picked it up.

i examined every little spot on that skateboard.

and then out of nowhere, i just threw it. i felt pain inside me, physically and mentally. i picked it up again and threw it as hard as i could.

i cried as threw it over and over again.

the thing was breaking badly.

but it felt good, breaking every little piece.

as i threw it one last time, i felt regret.

that was mine and jack's skateboard. our skateboard.

what have i done?

i panicked and paced back and forth.

what is wrong with me?

it's almost like i have control over my brain and body, but at the same time i don't.

the clock ticking in my room got louder every second.

it was hurting me.

i stopped and stared at it for a second.

thinking i was gonna make the ticking stop. but it got louder and louder every second.

"stop.." i said.

"stop it!" i yelled.

"stop!! stop it!! please stop!! stop! stop!" i cried.

then jack bursted into my room and hugged me.

"baby!" he held me.

"make it stop!! make it stop" i cried harder.

"make what stop?!" he looked at me.

"jack it loud!! it's so loud!! it's hurting me!!" i yelled.

"what is?! taylor what's wrong??" he looked around the room.

"stop it!" i cried.

he looked confused so he took my hand and pulled me out of the room.

"where are you taking me?" i looked around.

we went outside and he put me inside the car.

all of a sudden the ticking stopped.

i opened my eyes and popped back into reality.

it was all a dream

i could hear my name being called.

i turned and saw jack shaking me. i was all sweaty.

"taylor!" he said in relief.

"what happened?" i asked confused.

"i dont know, you were tossing and turning, screaming and crying. you wouldn't wake up." he touched my face.

"i'm sorry"

"don't be baby, it was just a nightmare." he said before kissing my lips.

"i guess"

i kept thinking to myself for a long time.

i could see jack staring at me the whole time.

after a while he finally spoke.

"what was it about?"

"i.... i dont really remember" i lied.

"i guess that's a good thing." he chuckled.

"yeah"

i thought about the dream...

oh my god emma!

"what's time is it?!" i tried looking for my phone.

"it's 9am"

"emma is gonna be late" i said getting up.

"i took her and isla to school already" he laughed.

"okay what about us?!" i took off my shirt.

"we dont have school today" he said.

and then i remembered the teacher announcing no school.

i sighed and jumped back into bed and cuddled with jack.

"i love you so much" i said touching his face.

"okay baby, i love you too" he giggled and pecked my lips.

"noo, don't give me a little kiss. i want a big kiss!" i pouted.

he rolled his eyes and kissed me passionately.

"now that's more like it" i said blushing.

"you hungry?" he asked laughing.

"i could go for some waffles?" i asked.

"okay come on lazy butt, get out of bed then" he pushed me away.

"no i wanna be with you all day" i cuddled back with him.

"why are you being so clingy today?!" he squeezed my cheeks.

"i want sex!!" i shouted.

"is that what you've been wanting this whole time?" he shifted himself.

"yes" i nodded.

"and you didn't tell me until now?" he moved on top of me.

"that's correct" i nodded.

"you are a tease!" he started kissing me.

i spoke between the kisses "but you love it avery"

"i love it when you call me avery" he giggles.

"why? does it turn you on?" i rubbed my knee against his area.

he groaned a little "yeah, it does"

"good to know, avery" i smiles and kisses him again.